Berzerk

So much in my mind... So much to express on the inside.. In my brain, so chaotic and untamed

Constructing the perfect line quite often 

takes it's time. Especially if it rhymes 

and sounds the same. It's a lot of power 

coming from the brain. It can be a real pain 

siphoning an immense amount of energy

It can drive a man insane. It could even take days

Sometimes even months. Even i have peices 

that have taken me years. It can be a pain

So much goes on inside my brain 

It's so chaotic and untamed 

I have so many thoughts

And yet so much that is still being brought 

to my attention. So much tension

So much caught which lurks. And did i mention 

i still have unfinished work. Everything seems fine

On the outside, but inside I'm going berserk. But than, 

to put them in words. There is so much that i wish

Could be heard. It's almost absurd 

to have all these thoughts. Though i have fought 

used up a whole lot of energy And brain power 

which has taken me an hour so far. In some case more

In some cases days, weeks even months. Sometimes it feels like a chore. 

It can be so exausting to the core. 

So much can be stored. Many thoughts i can't ignore. 

The trick is how they are expressed. I confess, 

when i describe with each and every line

When i try to find the perfect rhyme

When there so much floating around in my mind

It can be a pain. Can drive a man insane

It's so chaotic and untamed

I have so many thoughts

And yet so much that is still being brought 

to my attention. So much tension

So much caught which lurks. I seem fine 

on the outside. But inside I'm going berzerk

Nov 7th, 2017

Jackie gunnin

Author's Note

Something new. I guess you could say teally quite true