Confession of a Coward

love confession

I wanted to talk to you,

But I stayed quiet and distant.

‘Cos I don’t know how,

And too timid to approach you.

Please let me start with this.

 

Emotional scars don’t heal easily.

From a long time of an act of foolishness,

And ignorance kept me apart from God.

A painful confession of my brokenness,

Led me back towards to His salvation.

 

My reconnection to God of redemption,

Allowed me a chance to meet you.        

That night, the first time I saw you.

I can’t help myself to stare at you.

You look so familiar and my curiosity begins.

 

At first, it was just a plain curiosity.

But without me noticing, it started something else.

I never get tired looking at you.

You become more beautiful in my eyes,

And I found myself being fascinated by you.

 

I tried to put some effort to become closer to you.

But it just place as in an awkward phase.

In such a peculiar chance.

Finally, we come face to face.

And my heart starts to race.

I don’t know what to say.

I’m afraid you might say, "No."

And my chances with you are low.

So I just stood there,

And watched you go.

 

I'll confess I'm a coward,

And yes I am scared.

I’ve never experienced rejection in my life,

And I’m so afraid of your rejection.

But I’m more scared not to have a slightest chance to prove myself to you.

 

I like you, and I don’t expect you to like me back.

I’m not asking for your heart,

I’m just hoping you can give me a chance.

I want to show and let you know how special you are to me.

I hope you can give me a chance.

 

I don’t know what you think of me.

I don’t even know why I’m so fixated on you.

I’m not supposed to be scared of you.

Just let me know if I should stop.

Take your time, I’ll be patiently waiting.