You, Always You

You

Do you ever feel

Like you’re drowning

But you don’t have the strength to

scream

Do you ever feel

Like you’re being buried alive

But you don’t have the strength to

cry

Do you ever feel

Like you’re being betrayed

But you don’t have the strength to

plead

Do you ever feel

Like you’re being abused

But you don’t have the strength to

fight

Do you ever feel

Like you’re being left behind

But you don’t have the strength to scream

please

Do you ever feel

Like you’re being cut to shreds

But you don’t have the strength to scream

stop

Do you ever feel

Like you’re being threatened

But you don’t have the strength to scream

can’t

Do you ever feel

Like you’re being chased

But you don’t have the strength to

run

Fairytale Dream

Someone to hold me through the storms

Someone to hug me through the nightmares

Someone to shower me with sweet kisses

Someone to whisper sweet nothings to me

Someone to shower me with compliments

Someone to say they love me no matter what

Someone to wipe my tears away

Someone to make me laugh

Someone to make me happy

Someone who cares for me

Someone who protects me

Someone who loves me

Someone who’ll promise to never let me go

Someone who’ll promise to stay with me

Someone who’ll promise to always love me

Hold me, hug me, shower me with sweet kisses

Whisper pretty words, shower me with adoration, love me

Wipe my tears away, make me laugh, make me happy

Care for me, protect me, love me

Never let me go, stay with me, love me

Dote on me, make me feel like the only one alive

Coddle me, make me feel adored and protected and beloved

Make me your beloved, your princess, your queen, your only love

Wake up, fool, wake up

All I’ve ever wanted, all I’ll never get

Don’t wake me up, I want to keep dreaming

Let me dream, let me keep dreaming

Faithful Little Pet (I know)

You’ll never love me like I love you

You’ll never love me at all

I’m just a useful toy, a plaything, a pet

I’m there to cheer you up when there’s no one else

There to talk when you don’t have anyone else

I’m there to help you, I’m there to give you little gifts

You accept them all, barely even a thank you

But it’s enough to see you happy

I’m your backup, you don’t need me

Only when there’s no one else

You’ll leave me behind, abandon me, push me away

You’ll walk off with your friends, your real friends

Nevermind the pet who just wants a bit of affection

My other friends say I should cut you off

They tell me you only appreciate me for what I give you

I tell them I know, I know it all

I know, so why can’t I cut you off?

Tell you I’m sick of your rejection

Tell you I’m sick of you taking me for granted

I can’t bear to see you suffering, I’ll always say okay

I’ll do anything for you, I’ll always be there when you need me

Even when you push me away, I’ll still wait

I’ll always say yes, you know I could never say no

All you need to do is ask, you don’t even need to beg

All you need to say is come, and I’ll help you, I’ll do whatever you want

Fetch, you tell me, and I’ll fetch

Go, you tell me, and I’ll go

Come, you tell me, and I’ll come

Your little dog

But at least pets get a word of praise, a bit of affection

At least they’re loved

100% Lies (Truth?)

“Idiot. How stupid are you?”

97% sassy comebacks, 3% wondering if it’s true

“I didn’t hear a word you said.”

95% pretending to be hurt, 5% actually hurt

“You shouldn’t eat so much, you’re getting chubby.”

90% laughing it off, 10% wincing in front of the mirror

“You’re really irritating.”

85% smiling as if nothing’s wrong, 15% frowning when no one’s looking

“Shut up, your voice is really annoying.”

70% feigned indifference, 30% crying when no one can see

“You always ruin everything!”

50% screaming into the pillow, 50% silent and holding back tears

“Stop it, you’re so annoying.”

70% crying when no one can see, 30% holding back tears

“You really shouldn’t eat that, you’re already chubby.”

85% refusing food, 15% pretending I’m not hungry

“Just go away.”

90% not fine, 10% faking being fine

“Are you okay?”

95% dying inside, 5% trying to keep going

“You know I love you, right?”

97% dead, 3% feebly calling for help

“I’m sorry, I was just joking around.”

100% gone gone gone

Too little, too late, always

Bye, bye, bye

Caged Like a Dog, Drowning Like a Rock, Fly Like a Bird

I’m sinking, I’m drowning, I’m trapped, I’m dying

The weights of expectations, the chains of failure

The cage of fear, the muzzle of bravado

I can’t do this, I can’t make it

Flying high, pretty birds

Free, beautiful, soaring

Carefree, happy, free

Enjoying life, free of the burdens of expectations

Free of fear

I want to fly like them

I want to be free, soaring above the clouds

Soaring above expectations, free of all fear

But I can’t, I’m chained to the ground, caged by my fear

Afraid of falling before I even leave the ground

Afraid of failing before I even catch a breath of freedom

One sweet breath, that’s all I ask

I’m afraid, I’ll say it now

I’ll say it here, where no one knows who I am

Where I’m just another sad writer in the midst of thousands

I’m afraid of falling, I’m afraid of disappointing them

I’m afraid of being judged, I’m afraid of being honest

I’m afraid of letting go, I’m afraid of freedom

However much I want it

My life is ruined, torn to shreds before my eyes

I’m helpless, I can do nothing, I should do something

I can’t, I’m too tired, too weak, too afraid

My life is an endless cycle of expectations and failure

I’m sorry, I can’t do it

I’m sorry, I’m so sorry

I’m letting myself drown, I’m letting them down

Help me, leave me alone

Save me, go away

Go away, go away

Leave me so I can sleep, I’m so tired

So tired…