Scared

I look into the mirror and only I can see the pain I hold inside,

I hide behind this stupid fake smile instead of letting them see my pain.

The pain I have from tragically losing my father at 20 years old,

The fear that my epilepsy will hold me back from all this life holds for me.

I’m scared of the future and not being able to accomplish my dreams,

I’m scared I’ll never work or drive again,

I’m scared everyone’s going to just run off and leave me like the rest.

I don’t know how much longer I can keep this act up.

I feel like a bottle of pop that’s about to explode.

I just want to go back to the healthy fun loving girl I was 6 years ago.

Someone who had no fears and loved with everything she had.

Reviews

[barleygirl]

This is beautifully honest. It makes me want to tell you all the bad stuff I went thru at your age & how the journey might go, as you gradually learn to manage & live with the bad things that happen in life. As children we are innocent & unspoiled, but something always happens to ruin that. Your poem describes how this can feel & how the normal human response is to wish we could go back to a better time. Of course, we never can. But all these bumps & bruises will eventually make you an even more beautiful & sensitive person. We are all scared of lots of things. But can't let fear guide us. I'm sorry for the loss of your dad (((HUGS))) Fondly, Margie

[Emily]

Thank you Margie

[Chris Shaw]

It takes a great deal of courage to overcome the sort of tragedy that you have had in your life, but it can be done. Expect it to take time but it is doable. You have expressed your feelings well in your lines Emily.

Chris

[Eris Marriott]

I think this is powerful, well-written, and extremely well-presented. It's a bit different in terms of style, but I think it turned out well for you. Lovely job!

[sette]

behind those fears there is still a courageous girl fighting her battles and surviving them very well and for that it had earned my admiration

[Emily]

Thank you!