Who am I?

Just looking for answers..

Who am I?
I always felt like I knew all the answers
The ones I didn't I usually figured them out
Smart? Oh yes, I though I was.

Yet only to realize there was so much more to me
Like what I love in life
The smell of the flowers when I stop to see
The colors so vibrant that I gasp at their beauty.

The laughter of my children
Do you know it is the most wonderful sound?
The memories of when they were young
Oh how much pleasure there I found.

Of myself, looking through old photographs
This once young girl, who smiled at all
Happy laughter was my sound, oh those were the days
Not thinking of much, nothing do I recall.

Yet here I am, alone once again
Oh how history keeps repeating itself

At least to me they do the same
And here I thought I put all away on a shelf.

Yet sometimes they do haunt
My memory, my vision, of all that I am
Till my whole world is spinning
And  there's not a thing I can do.   

So why the time shed, I ask?
Why the tears all over again?
Have I not given all up already?
Lord, have I not suffered enough?

Have I not paid my dues...

For tell me

I haven't a clue?

Reviews

[Patches I'm not so new..]

We always wonder "have I done enough? What did I overlook? Maybe if i'd have done this, that differently No we live the best we know how we do as our teachers taught us we can do no more, nor should we desire to do any less. A famious Southern Gentleman said "Do your duty in all things, you cannot do more, nor should you wish to do less"

[Sean M. Addams]

i think we all soul search at sometime in our live... i thought you did a great job on this piece...very emotional to me... but well done!!!

[deeps]

Very heartfelt write here, full of emotion.

[Thomas B. Buckman]

You are human.
A great poem, a true vision of who you are as a person. Sensitive, well worded, heartfelt.
This is a lovely piece.