Late Apology

Why are you the center of so many of my poems, and not all are good...?

Just when I thought I was free of your grasp
You found a way to ensnare my heart again
Just when I thought I could take in air freely, just a gasp
From your love I've tried again and again
To escape

Like the spider webs we weave
Our fears and lies have us caught up in this race
Why I cannot leave, I cannot concieve
I think it's the time when we've fallen from grace
From you

Just for a moment I thought I was free
To be who I am, to let go of who we were
I can't find the strength to forgive me
You've forgotten me, because you have her
It's impossible

I know, long ago
You forgave me, my idiocy
I know, in the past
I was the only one blinded
To see

What have you done
Or rather, what have I?
I think now I'll drown my sorrows in rum
This is my cry
What you

I know I've done wrong
And I know I've lost my chance
This may be my last song
So allow me this last dance
Do to

I haven't left lost
Rather you've found direction for me,
I'm still where I've been tossed
Please accept this apology
Me.

Author's Note

I miss him and that's the only true regret I will ever have.