Dagger of Dreams

taunted by dreams

My dreams dangle like a dagger above my forehead

As my eyes droop shut against my will

My dreams taunt me,

They show me all that I wanted; they show me all I could have; they show me my deepest desires

When I awake; I feel hollow, adrift.

The agony of experiencing what I crave, only to have it disappear into oblivion

Leaves a bitter taste in my mouth and a pang in my stomach,

But these vivid dreams that sprawl out in my mind night after night

Are like a delicious poison, being poured down my throat.

They satisfy some part of me, but leave me wanting more.

As I awake I try to clutch every tiny, precious fragment that I can

As I stand in the shower, hot water pounding down on my back

I try to piece it all together, bound it up, in a tight private book.

But as each nick in the fabric of my dream becomes a gaping hole, it all starts to drift away

I’m left all alone in my mind, with a deafening silence

With nothing but the longing for my reveries to become my reality

But could I truly act on all that I dream of?

Or do my longings only resolve in my tortuously delightful dream world. 

Author's Note

I haven't captured everything i hoped to yet..but for now this is it

Reviews

[Marina]

'the agony of experiencing what I crave, only to have it disappear into oblivion'
the worst feeling is waking up from a dream that could never really happen. this is what your poem reminds me of. it shows exactly how you feel, and exactly how addictive daydreaming about these things can be. the dark side of dreaming big.the 'deafening silence' you describe is a perfect metaphor for being alone in your longing. awesome job n thanks for sharing :)

[Maskedthoughts]

Awe thank you!

[KeeD]

I enjoyed this piece, the longing of achieving something of importance in reality only to disappear in the horizons of dreams. Really good stuff, keep writing -CM.

[Maskedthoughts]

Thank you!

[SquinklaPsyOps]

You certainly tell it like it is.

"My dreams dangle like a dagger above my forehead
As my eyes droop shut against my will
My dreams taunt me,
They show me all that I wanted; they show me all I could have; they show me my deepest desires
When I awake; I feel hollow, adrift."

[Maskedthoughts]

Thank you!