I am Not a Robot; I am Afraid of my Emotions

A Poem by Megan Oliver

I have always been a strong person

And I've never been one to let my emotions sway me
Many would say I am barely human

Not all there
Of course, I understand what they mean
They think there is a part of me missing

And are they right?

Running from love
Or sorrow
Both, perhaps?
Only I know the truth
That I'm not brave at all

I run from my emotions

And I don't like to admit it
My armour is not built from bravery, but from fear

And I am a coward
For I act brave, but when it comes to my feelings
Run
All I do is run
I'm a fraud
Don't you see?

Of all the heroes in this world
Fear is known to them

My mistake is that they face their fears regardless
Yet I cannot

Every tale needs a hero, so they say
My role is yet to be decided
Only I can change myself
The way others see me is wrong, and the way I see myself isn't any better
I'm no hero
Only when I face my emotions will that ever change
Not only that, but maybe I'll be at peace with myself
Someday