Paint on a smile.

 

They all knock on my doors. Look through my windows. Lie across my bathroom floor. I painted on a smile, so they wouldn’t see. I stole a drop of sanity. If I don’t stop faking. My life should be worth taking.

 

I painted on a smile. With red lipstick and hot tears. Time passes like cement in an hour glass. I guess I’ll rest when I die in a few years.

 

I painted on a smile. With ticking clocks and yellow scissors. Bloody razors that call out my shame. I’ll just steal a happy person’s brain…

 

You promised me love. You promised me you were different. With your words, you tied me down. Spat currents at me and watched me drown. I thought you could handle it… Even when I frowned. There’s no where to hide. What we had before, I can’t find.

 

So, I painted on a smile. With broken hearts and loaded guns. With open windows and a barbed wire rope. I’ll never forget you. And in a few years, I’ll still miss you.

 

F**k it all and forget my name. Kiss that w***e. And play the game. You said you could mend my broken heart. Well, you’ve given up and it’s just the start. So, f**k the nights I felt alive. I’ll just find an ocean and take a dive.

 

You let me drown. You let me down. So, I’ll get lost. Walk a few miles. And when I see you again, I’ll just paint on a smile…

Reviews

[Vanessa]

Oh my god, the last two stanzas were godly!! I felt that I could cut open a little slit in my heart and stick those two stazas in there, that's how close they were to me. I honestly felt such a closeness with your words, it's insane.

Anyhow, before I rant more, your poem was glorious and amazing. The ending was just perfect beyond reasoning.
Great, great job.

--vk

[Angel's Lady]

Wow. Very dynamically written and very powerful. Good job. I think I'll go paint on a smile now.

[Gandré]

I found this well written, even rhythmic in its tragedy of meaning and I found it courageous. I am never able to write when I feel heavy in my heart. I voted for you. good luck ! Gandr�

[An owl on the moon]

Deep and swift, like a sharp blade piercing heart and soul. A powerful write about the fabrications we exist in in order to survive our pain... So haunting to me as I lived these words for ten years of my life. Almost ended it...