Worthless

I'm not worthless, I'm a human being.

I feel my worthlessness

Like I’m cursed to exist

But I’m not really feeling it

Forgive me I just

Don’t know in which direction is the nearest ditch

Bewitched by the hate

I wouldn’t be missed not even by fate

And it’s too late to stand for anyone else

Couldn’t do it for myself

Life went south I don’t know what this is about

Scream and shout but nobody hears me

I want to get out of this hell but nobody’s near me

It appears I see my fears in the mirror, leering at me revering anger and greed

I need

Freedom, I always see them

People with a purpose, but I’m the animal in this circus

I’m still around for a service

Deliverance, caressing the best things in my life

Holding on tight as it’s torn from my grasp by all their might

Don’t need sight to see the fight being carried out this evening inside my mind, twisting my spine, just another rhyme

Sometimes you’ll find it in my daily route, a way to deal, a way of being, seeing myself freezing queasy because life isn’t easy

But are you not seeing that I’m not a f*****g machine?

I’m grateful for life, believe me, I really am

But being hateful because I don’t have a saint’s soul is bull, I do the best I can

Fateful angels faithful heart-filled saviours married have carried me through the cruel world

But I was never told I had to make diamonds of coal

I’m full of opportunities, but I’m new to these, so please be kind to me

And maybe someday you’ll get to see that I’m not completely worthless

Author's Note

I very seldom reply to reviews, but I promise I read EVERY single one. I look forward to my next review because it helps me learn. Even if it's just one word, I promise, I will be ecstatic to have the chance to hear what you have to say. Whenever you write something about my poems, or the themes of my poems, or criticize me it is not in vain. I will listen, learn and be thankful.

Reviews

[Nolo Segundo]

It seems ironic but generally the more sensitive, intelligent and introspective one is, the more likely he or she is to be self-critical and even prone to depression (which is, as my shrink taught me long ago, just a mix of sadness and anger: when I identified what I was sub-consciously angry about,the depression would lift).
There is a strong psychological reason Jesus told us to forgive-- but that also includes forgiving ourselves.

[Najam Us Saher]

I can relate to this right now.
I wouldn't be missed not even by fate. This became my favourite line. I really liked this poem. Thank you so much for writing my thoughts and making me feel comforted.

[wordman]

i guess a lot of people feel like this from time to time,even my self,