A Poem by ace

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the urges consumes you
like a wave pushing you under water
like sailing in a storm
red tears streaming from your arms
as your lungs struggle for air
and your heart fights to beat
one pill followed by many more
wondering when will it end
hating looking in the mirror
and seeing what is staring back
not knowing how much longer you can hold on
wanting ribs stick out
 along with every other bone 
wanting the pain of not eating to come back
and see the number on the scale plummet fast
giving into the urge to stick your fingers down your throat
giving into exactly what your mid wants
listing to the urges instead of what your body wants
your life is now controlled by urges 
till the day you stop waking up

© 2017 ace

Author's Note

ignore grammer

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Added on November 10, 2017
Last Updated on November 10, 2017
Tags: mental illness, self harm, cutting, purging, eating disorder



monroeville, PA

i am 19 years old and non-binary . i started to write when i was hospitalized for mental health reasons. to this day i still struggle and that is what i write about. more..

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