urges

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the urges consumes you

like a wave pushing you under water

like sailing in a storm

red tears streaming from your arms

as your lungs struggle for air

and your heart fights to beat

one pill followed by many more

wondering when will it end

hating looking in the mirror

and seeing what is staring back

not knowing how much longer you can hold on

wanting ribs stick out

 along with every other bone 

wanting the pain of not eating to come back

and see the number on the scale plummet fast

giving into the urge to stick your fingers down your throat

giving into exactly what your mid wants

listing to the urges instead of what your body wants

your life is now controlled by urges 

till the day you stop waking up

Author's Note

ignore grammer