A TIME TO REMEMBER

one of the hardest days of my life

one of the hardest things in life we face is to loose a loved one . most times its a shock and unexpected , but there are times when you know what is to come . that day came for me when i took my dad to his last doctors appointment ." my dad had cancer ". my dad has always been the strongest man i have ever known . at his last doctor visit the doctor told him there was nothing else he could do . i was so scard i could'nt breath and as i looked at my dad for the frist time i saw tears in his eyes , and the look of defeat on his face .

i had to get out of that room , so i told him and mom i was going to call my husband to tell him we were on our way home "i always did that " when i got to the lobby i lost it but i knew i had to control myself for my dads sake and moms . when i got back to the room i told dad " what do doctors know their not God

YOUR GONNA BEAT THIS . WE HAD DROVE MY DADS TRUCK THAT DAY IT HAD A CAMPER ON IT WE HAD PUT A MATTRESS IN THE BACK SO HE COULD SLEEP GOING HOME WE HAD TO TRAVEL OVER A 100 MILES TO GET TO THE TREATMENT CENTER , THAT WAS THE LONGEST AND HARDEST DRIVE I HAVE EVER TOOK , MY DAD GOT IN THE BACK ALONE MOM RODE UP FRONT WITH ME , I KNEW I HAD TO BE STRONG AND NOT BREAK DOWN AND LET MOM OR DAD THINK THAT I HAD GIVE UP I WANTED TO BE THERE FOR THEM THE WAY THEY WERE ALWAYS THERE FOR ME . WHEN WE GOT HOME I ACTED LIKE I ALWAYS DID WHEN I WAS AROUND DAD BUT AT HOME I WAS COMMING APART AT THE SEEMS . AFTER THAT DAY MY DAD LASTED THREE WEEKS HE JUST GAVE UP AND I KNOW HE WAS TIRED AND IN PAIN THOUGH HE THOUGHT WE DIDNT KNOW THAT WE DID . MY LAST DAY WITH MY DAD WAS MAY 12TH 2006 THE DAY HE DIED . I REMEMBER JUST WATCHING HIM SLEEP TRYING TO REMEMBER EVERY LINE ON HIS FACE , THE COLOR OF HIS EYES , THE SOUND OF HIS VOICE BECAUSE MY WORST FEAR WAS THAT ID FORGET IN TIME . SOME HOW I KNEW THAT THIS WOULD BE THE DAY I WOULD CLOSE A CHAPTER IN MY LIFE I WOULD LOOSE MY DAD .

WE EACH TOOK OUR TURN SAYING GOOD-BYE AND BY THIS TIME HE COULDNT SPEAK , I TOLD MY DAD HE WAS THE STRONGEST MAN I HAD EVER MET AND THAT HE WAS MY HERO AND I LOVED HIM MORE THAN WORDS COULD EVER SAY AND THAT WHEN IT CAME MY TIME TO GO HOME I WOULD SEE HIM AGIAN THEN LIKE A WISPER HE WAS GONE FOREVER . I KNOW LOSS  IS A PART OF LIFE AND WE ALL GO THROUGH IT BUT WE FORGET WHAT A BLESSING IT CAN BE TO BE THERE WITH SOMEONE YOU LOVE  AND GET THE CHANCE TO SAY GOOD-BYE MY DAD ALWAYS SAID HE GOT TO BE THERE WHEN I CAME INTO THIS WORLD ONE OF THE BEST DAYS OF HIS LIFE WELL I GOT TO BE THERE WHEN HE DRIFTED OUT OF MINE , ITS BEEN SAID TIME HEALS ALL WOUNDS WELL I DONT THINK SO WE JUST LEARN TO LIVE WITH THEM .THERE IS LESSONS TO BE LEARNED FROM EVERY CHAPTER IN LIFE , WHAT IVE LEARNED IS TELL THE PEOPLE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE THEM EVERY DAY DONT STAY MAD TO LONG AND FORGIVE FOR THIS IS THE HARDEST FOR LIFE IS LIKE A VAPOR HERE TODAY AND GONE TOMARROW .                                                                                                     ALABAMATAZ1970