She's contradicting again

She's contradicting again

A Poem by Jada Johnson
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have you ever asked yourself "who am i"?

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I don’t know if I can be defined or contained in an image or a particular idea of who I should be or how I should act. I am everything and nothing. I embrace my uniqueness. I embrace my inner mind. the inner me. but the more I share who I am with people, the more I lose myself. 

maybe I’m just someone who spaces out the world when he or she is numb. he tells me I scare the hell out of him and calm his soul at the same time. maybe that’s what love is, one great big contradiction that somehow balances out in the end. I fight the falling but crave the affection. my mind is filled with a bunch of what ifs and I contain several multitudes. 

it’s always been hard to put my feelings into words, I always feel like I’m repeating the same thought over and over but in different words. I may have a personality disorder or I may just be fucked up or I might just be “contradicting again”

© 2018 Jada Johnson



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This is a captivating little spiel that most people can relate to. Some people are linear & programmed & logical, but not us artists, huh? Your title is a brilliant idea & I love the way you use it again at the end, in combination with other possibilities. It's not easy to express extreme uncertainty & still make it sound reasonable, as you've done here. Fondly, Margie

Posted 7 Months Ago


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Wow. That was so good! I felt your truth shine through as I was reading this. The flow really appealed to me and I agree with you. Sometimes it feels like the more you show of yourself, the more you question everything.

Very well done!

Posted 6 Months Ago


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Jada Johnson

6 Months Ago

Honestly, thank you so much for taking the time to leave your feedback. i truly appreciate it.
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This is a captivating little spiel that most people can relate to. Some people are linear & programmed & logical, but not us artists, huh? Your title is a brilliant idea & I love the way you use it again at the end, in combination with other possibilities. It's not easy to express extreme uncertainty & still make it sound reasonable, as you've done here. Fondly, Margie

Posted 7 Months Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

I like this one, probably because I feel like a walking contradiction most of the time. This one feels very honest, I enjoyed how you abandoned the rhyme scheme for this piece. It's like an inner dialog which is always refreshing to read.

Great write!

Posted 8 Months Ago


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Jada Johnson

8 Months Ago

thank you

i really appreciate this
This is SO relatable. The double connotations of seemingly "simple" everyday life are lost to most minds...it baffles me. The dual nature of things is just like a roiling sea of waves in my body - your words hint at the feeling. Great work :)

Posted 8 Months Ago


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Jada Johnson

8 Months Ago

I'm so glad you were able to relate to this and thank you!
Let's just say.......That I'm actually speechless........You are awesome.... .....After reading most of your works....... It feels like I'm no where to you........No offense please.... Just expressing myself.... :)

Posted 8 Months Ago


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Jada Johnson

8 Months Ago

oh wow.. thank you

you're amazing yourself though!
anonymous_at

8 Months Ago

I don't think so... But thnks anyway.....
This is such a powerful writ. It's raw and it speaks a very uncomfortable truth. Especially this part: "i em"brace my inner mind. the inner me. but the more i share who i am with people, the more i lose myself."
Lately I keep thinking the same thing. It's like the more I show my true self, the more people seem either to not notice or to think something is off with me, and then I don't know who the f I am anymore. Thank you for sharing that.

p.s: no you're not fucked up.

Posted 8 Months Ago


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Jada Johnson

8 Months Ago

i couldn't thank you enough for leaving such a thoughtful review, this means a lot to me

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You're Fucked up. But don't worry that let's you know you're human.

Posted 8 Months Ago


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Jada Johnson

8 Months Ago

haha, maybe
I love these inner voices you are able to put into words you have a natural talent for making your poems relate another great piece keep them coming

Posted 8 Months Ago


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Jada Johnson

8 Months Ago

thank you and you keep yours coming as well!
these are the types of feelings that are mostly in your head

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Jada Johnson

8 Months Ago

I'm glad you were able to relate to it.

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