So Funny I Could Cry

the aftermath

Rode the rails from California all the way to Montréal

On a whim of exploration just because I heard the call
Whispered to me during  restless dreams
...funny I remembered them at all...

Played cards and  drank too much whiskey with the bartender and his crew
We told dirty jokes and laughed until the  smoky air turned blue
Near dawn they offered me a berth
Cause my drunken head was aching
But not one single soul could guess my heart was breaking

Switched trains in Vancouver city, when I got there it was raining
Between my hangover and self-pity, every inch of me was paining
So I lit up in a bathroom stall and sucked it like a soother
Funny I can remember anything at all ... I'm such a loser

I traveled through the Rockies in a burnt out smoky haze
watched the prairies pass me in undulating golden waves
I was riding like a zombie on that good ol' CNR
Alive but mostly living at the bar

By the time I reached the east
I was sick to death of lakes, rock and trees
Dreamt of her again like mad…
…nearly brought me to my knees

A lot of miles stretch between us
But it still feels like yesterday 
I guess even time and stoned drunk distance
Can’t keep some memories at bay
Still I hope beyond all  hope

Maybe someday hers will fade...

Until then I'll learn some french, get me a job, maybe have it made...
But right now I'm so goddamn lonely I could sit right down and bawl
Funny I gotta teardrop left at all

Reviews

[Ryan Halterman]

I love this poem. I can relate in many different ways. This is really well written you definetly put me right there. One of the better poems I have read in quite some time. If I had a publishing company this would definetly be in a book....a good one not any of those crappy books. The good s**t. Seriously though if you have not already you should look into getting this published on paper. It is deserving of a life beyond the interwebs.

[felioness]

Wow...you made my day...no my year!!!