Tell Shipwrecked I'm Sorry

A Poem by felioness

The trials and tribulations from child to manhood faced by a single mother.

A void exists
Where a troubled spirit once rested ...

You were carried amid storms
Battered by emotions ... ravaged, tossed
Nearly capsizing the mothership
...awkwardly she carried her precious cargo ashore

(certain of damage)

Sanctuary was a harbour in the rain
Alone, weary ... drained
Moored and awaiting your arrival

The berth was solitary ...
Troubled by incessant worry and inner turmoils
All those things young hearts cannot express
... let alone dispel

Who would listen ... who to tell
about the inexpressible joy and immeasurable dread
Worming it's way through uncherished flesh
...unworthy, unworthy, unworthy

(it said)

You were born in protest
Expelled against your will
Red-faced and clinging to the womb

(not yet! not yet!)

How could you have known?

Metal clamps gripped your head
Pulling you out into the cold
Arms and legs flailing
Your perfect rage shredding my being

Your brilliance burned
I was branded
The falcon had landed

...no time for regrets

We sailed with a skeleton crew...
The torch was handed down
A new life... you...made of me
Raking my flesh with talons of love

(fierce and frightening)

I grasped the torch terrified
Ill-prepared

(without a clue)

We sailed the high seas

In a pirate ship

Built for two

Rock-a-bye baby in a gale force wind
I swear I love you true ... but I have sinned
Condemned to swim in endless seas of regret
Because ... I thought you were my own ...
Who knew our time would be so short?

We lived and loved ...and fought
(like pirates do)

Still I miss you ... miss your presence
Miss your cold, conditional, angry love
... because, anything is better than this

Better than this nothingness where I exist
Since you abandoned ship