Fog on a Sunny DayA Poem by Marie AnzaloneTake your hot jealousy and your aloof distance, your bitterness and jade-colored lens filters and toss them into the ocean, one piece at a time, let the water have them. For them I have no use.
I will be over here I will be over here learning to dance with two left feet in the waves taking a chance again on trust learning to love the tides again, the burn of the day and the softness of a lover’s eyes by lamplight; those times we suspended dreams in mid-air by nothing more than the power of suggestion. The promise that unpowered flight will be achieved within my lifetime. That something held gently in the palm of one’s heart can be examined with the tenderness of angels, the introspection of fog on a sunny day.
Remember that possession only works if the one possessed desires it- otherwise, it is assimilation of another’s private home in the desert of desire, the subjugation of the fire in damp spaces where the flame longs to light but is subdued as unsatisfying smolder.
I am ready for this solitude to turn from waiting into action. I have loved each in his own fashion, as best such a woman can. But tell me, why so much fear to love a woman in the style of her own desire? Is she too much ocean in too small a teaspoon? Too grand an aria that she violates the solemnity of all the world’s cathedrals?
While you build your walls and hone your skills at disappearing- behind critique, in front of television glass, under the ice of a fine glass of best scotch- I will be over there I will be over there falling in love over and over again every day anew, until someone looks at me and also sees eternity in their lover’s gaze. So many have asked, many have taken. So few gave something back.
I am selfish- I do want it all. I want you to teach me to dance in the streets and rain and sea foam; I want Italian operas and to be fed chocolate by your hand; I want to be allowed to want, I want to be missed but not smothered. I want to let my fire shine like a beacon in your night, I want your star to hang my secrets; I want you to curious enough to learn my secrets and why they became secrets.
I will be here, waiting for you to take this hand and hold it to the light examine my veins, see my age- want me anyway. See how my fragility can be peeled away to show my strength, or was it the other way around? I cannot recall, sometimes, exactly how the moon wanted to be loved; when the greedy sun devours her she can think only of the art of being consumed, slowly, as sand melting into the waves. We are after all, only so much as we see when we stop fearing to step into the water again. © 2017 Marie AnzaloneAuthor's Note
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Added on December 30, 2016 Last Updated on January 9, 2017 AuthorMarie AnzaloneXecaracoj, Quetzaltenango, GuatemalaAboutBilingual (English and Spanish) poet, essayist, novelist, grant writer, editor, and technical writer working in Central America. "A poet's work is to name the unnameable, to point at frauds, to ta.. more..Writing
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