Four Friends Waiting Out a Flood in a Cafe; in HuehueA Poem by Marie Anzalonewritten as a meditation on the theme of "Free Will" for the Xela poetry Club "Casa Los Altos. This is the English translation of the original I wrote in SpanishI. That day, the rain poured down like the collective sorrow of three lost generations. We waited it out- an old visionary, a middle-aged artist, a young poet. And me, the stranger, the future lover maybe of one or more than one, of them. Today, just hot tea. And a warm fire.
We talked of drought, youth, joy old age, grief, travel, flood. Prison. Freedom. The new role of Art in so many lives. Of Gods and demons and loves and free will. We asked, can someone change human nature? we pondered, “what does it take for that to happen?”
and of me, they asked, “What is it like, to be an Artist of so many mediums, a sea Traveler amongst us land dwellers?”
II. I feel invisible, I said. Unheard, unseen. Unimportant. For this is a land of surface waters, and I am an explorer of the Deep.
To those who lack imagination, grass is green and water is wet.
The visionary in me said, “to me, grass is life. Fire. A recipient of water. A place to search for nesting birds and small lizards and butterflies. A bed to explore a daring lover’s body by moonlight.
The poet in me said, grass is also the scent of my first true love. The memory of my hardest summer’s work. A childhood among cousins. A whistle held between two thumbs. A table upon which to write a poem.
The Artist in me said grass is gold and vermillion, and jade, and emerald. Gray. The perfectly comfortable seat rom which to paint the setting sun as it melts into the landscape.
But we not listen to words that are a challenge to understand. We laugh at the painter who colors the ground as the evening sun paints it in fire.
III. Not everything happens for a reason- we are beyond arrogant when we place that condition upon God. There is never, for example, a good enough reason to practice exclusion and cruelty.
We call it “Destiny” when things go right for ourselves; or go wrong for others. “Reward for Good Living” whenever someone who looks like us, thinks like us, has sex like us, dresses like us- wins a prize. We call that same prize “Luck” when won by someone who is different.
IV. The Visionary said, “I think you can be a citizen of more than one country, in your heart. Or, perhaps, like me, none at all.”
“Yes,” countered the Artist, “Home, and what counts, at the end of all great floods and droughts, is more where and how you place your love- not where your parents placed you.”
The Poet took this in, and said, “I am young, and I have not traveled- but I know the place I was born is not my home. I think it is more than what you love; it is facing what you most fear, too.
He asked me, “and what is it that you most fear?”
V. “I grow older every year,” I said. “I fear doing so surrounded only by people who see grass as green. Who live in a prison of incuriosity. Unwilling to sit with me and watch our collective sunsets galloping on four strong legs towards us. That nobody will take my hand in the dark and invite me, Home.
I fear I will only ever be the Stranger. Invisible, forgotten, left for the Other who is younger, less complex; who looks more like everyone else. More Desirable. In every way.
I will create Art that interests nobody. Write words that go unread. Dream and love and have those dreams and loves, disbelieved.
That I am not meant to ever be, either: Anyone’s preselected Destiny; or what they choose of Free Will.”
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para WH, JG, y JM, con aprecio por escucharme ese día cuando pensé que íbamos a ahogar en la lluvia © 2017 Marie Anzalone |
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1 Review Added on July 13, 2017 Last Updated on July 16, 2017 AuthorMarie AnzaloneXecaracoj, Quetzaltenango, GuatemalaAboutBilingual (English and Spanish) poet, essayist, novelist, grant writer, editor, and technical writer working in Central America. "A poet's work is to name the unnameable, to point at frauds, to ta.. more..Writing
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