Forgetting

In the night I try to forget it all.
I try to sleep,but I can't for all
I can think about is it all for I think ...
If I was strong enough I could of fought back
If I was smart enough I would of told someone What he's doing
If I was brave enough I should of done something

But....
I'm not strong so he took avenge of that
I'm not smart so it kept going on
I'm not brave so I did not fight back
I just cried and kept it inside
I just feel like a stupid weak coward

The hardest part is waking up remembering
What I was trying so hard to forget the night before

Reviews

[SpeedyHobbit Armstrong]

Ick, gotta love insomnia... not. It is literally the worst when it is induced by such horrible events as What I sense you went through. I hope this grows quickly easier

[SANDEEP SHETTY]

memories keep haunting some people...i know...i can understand...a perfect confession i can say..!!!

[Sue Hart]

This poem describes the normal reaction of a victim. An attackers desire is to humble and control the victim and to do that the victim has to feel that way. It gives them power over the victim when they instill helplessness. What can I do about it? I'm not powerful enough to stop them. It's the same tactics over and over again. To stop being the victim, even after escaping them, you must rip that power out of their hands. Try writing a poem of the heroic success of the victim who escapes. Shine the light upon it in a different way. Have eyes to see the joy of freeing yourself.

[child of God]

Hi thank you I'm sorry that's hard I have a hard time with that I just escaped the recent guy in mid November and I'm kinda scared that another one is going to take his place I still have nightmares memories some of them coming back most me running not knowing where I'm going just that I have to run I'm sorry about this rambling I tend to do that for some reson

[Sue Hart]

Not rambling to me. I hadn't realized this was so recent. Have you moved? Do you have help?

[child of God]

Hi-Yes I moved but I don't know where he lives all I know is he i out there still All of them
read moreHi-Yes I moved but I don't know where he lives all I know is he i out there still All of them
I use go to counseling but I didn't talk to her and my parents thought she was the problem so they fired her and I have been sent to cider ridge but I pretended so I could go home and my most recent panic attack was embarrassing it was at our school dance show case my friends tried to help but Taylor said I was being stubborn
My freind Nate is the one that talked me out of it then he drove me home because I missed the bus the trigger was the clapping there I don't know I don't remember the day this is all what my friends told me and I know it was on a Thursday well I feel like I'm rambling again I hope this answers your questions
~ Broken girl

[Laura Harrison]

A very honest and deep poem. I applaud your bravery.

[child of God]

Thank you...

[Daniel Sala]

A brave poem, and very well-written, in few words you convey the feelings, the sense of guilt innocent parties feel in some situations, and how we cannot reconcile sleep for thinking about - and slowly assimilating - experiences. This is a polished poem of yours, really good work.

[child of God]

Thank you I just want to forget everything but it is something that I learned tje hard way will never go away it will all was be there waiting for me to let my guard down and haunt me
Sorry for me rambling well thank you glad you like it