It Breaks My Heart In Half

it breaks my heart in half
knowing that i knew you
but now all we have is hate

and mistrust now

we watch another from a distance
with nothing more than spite

wishful thinking
angry anger 

and pure distrust
 
so now all we hold is coldness

remembering all thats past

in-between us

and forgotten 

now a pleasant little nightmare

without any kind of recourse

we cut each other deeply

with our own pure silence

because that is all thats left

in-between us

to bleed until forgotten

eventually
dead and unremembered

going forward with our lights off

this breaks my heart in half

knowing that i knew you

but now all we have is hate

is this fate?

or just fucked up disappointment?

i have nothing left to give you

you have nothing that i want

we are now two skeletons of wrath

locked in one big closet 

together 

with not much left

 

dead and buried

is our old connection. . .

without any kind of funeral

(its f*****g painful)

but such is life

  when we f*****g kill it

(but no one really dies)

now welcome to regret

please shield your eyes

Author's Note

Reviews

[AllauraRose]

Dang, whoever that was about must have really screwed you over. I really felt the hate in this and I'm so sorry you had to deal with whatever happened. The way your relationship changed so drastically means they must have messed up terribly. I can feel your rage simmer throughout the poem as you speak about the person who shall not be named and how you two have taken everything from each other. I wish you the best of luck in overcoming the pain and being able to lock the past away so it can't hurt you more than it already did. Great job!

[Davidgeo]

Thanks, I'm glad you liked it. It's more metaphor and my take on a collection of several different relationships than one specific person/relationship/situation. And if you ever catch me saying something is all someone else messing it up terribly slap me in the face as hard as you can... I've always been partially to blame for everything that ever went wrong in my personal life.

[Anne’sRants]

Its crazy how hate and love are opposites, yet so close in attitude they're often mistaken for each other. I love how you presented the warning I see in this poem. Hate doesn't do anything to the the person its directed at. but it destroys the person it inhabits.

[wordman]

well i`m glad you have seen your evil ways
i guess i could forgive u

[Davidgeo]

Get lost plagiarist. Are you still telling people you used to be in the military? It's called stolen valor Ron Parrish.... and you're a total scum bag pile of dog s**t for it.

[wordman]

dear david, kiss my a*s,you half baked piece of s**t
150 different names,total scum bag want to be troll but you`re just not clever enough,,,f**k you

[VALORMORE DE PLUME]

This would seem to speak to the communication breakdown(Led Zeppelin). Drives us insane. Many in this world, suffer due to this.

[Vivian Gospel]

This is written with some amount of disappointment in heart. I hope he or she is reading.

[Gee]

Apologies....deleted...........

[Davidgeo]

I wish you didn't do that. You killed an interesting line of conversation. You can insult me all day here, it's just silly internet words. It's never going to change how I feel about you gee. I respect you completely. You can say almost anything you want to me and it won't change that. I may tell you to go f**k yourself but at the end of the day... i respect you completely.

[Gee]

Ah well, it's done. You know me I wouldn't purposely disrespect either you or your writing, and I definitely ain't gonna be throwing insults around, not to you or anyone else. You are one of the few that I'm always happy to see having a butchers at my offerings, as you are always honest and insightful with your words :))

[Davidgeo]

It makes me feel all warm inside reading things like that. You truly are a lovely human being... and you're actually genuine with it. That is a rare thing in places like this.

One of these days I'm going to have to teach how to be a proper c**t.

[Davidgeo]

…. for sport

[Gee]

LMAO.....that's made my day.. " a proper c**t "
I can have my moments if folk upset the family.
Years ago I stuck a fella into a chest freezer whilst food shopping with my then 2 year old daughter, afterx having twice warned him off for nearly mowing her down with his trolley. His face was a picture, as was the little ones.
This happens very rarely though, I like a peaceful life.

[Davidgeo]

Ha... ha... that seems like a pretty reasonable response to me. The things I'd do to anyone that even remotely put my child in danger would be a felony.

I was probably going a little over the top with my previous comments. Your style isn't only a good for the immediate situation (not going to jail) but it sets an example for the little ones. Temperance is so much more respectable than violence. I wish my pops liked a peaceful life... my confrontational style has always been satisfying but it's also extremely limiting. No one likes to play with the confrontational kid.... even if it's justified.

[Chris Shaw]

You mention hate. That is such a strong emotion and I am left pondering on your break up. It seems to me this other was special at one time.

We cut each other deeply
with our own pure silence

hate/mistrust/anger

There is deep hurt and pain in your lines. You also mentioned the word regret

My wish for you, a healing. A softening of all that hurts.

Chris

[Davidgeo]

It's not quite as personal as it seems. Writing about individual 'break ups' really isn't my thing. Look closer.

[Chris Shaw]

You talk of two skeletons locked in one cupboard Maybe you are referring to the two sides of you?

[Davidgeo]

That's close enough. I think you might be too emotionally healthy to truly identify with this. Lucky you.

[Chris Shaw]

I may be lucky but I have family who aren't :(

[Davidgeo]

Apologies for bringing that up. That was a stupid psych gimmick meant to control a conversation. Not that this excuses it, but, I'm used to talking to idiots and teenagers on this site. If we ever meet in real life you are allowed to punch me in the face as hard as you can and then I'll buy you ten drinks. I really do feel bad for saying that.

[Chris Shaw]

Don't feel bad about it. I only mentioned the family bit because I do have some insight into mental health problems and how to help those family members when they are really struggling. No harm done. Don't beat yourself up over it.

Chris