Everyday Pretending

the things we do or don't do for friends

She doesn�t know what�s best for you
She�s pretty and popular
But she doesn�t know you like I do.

She likes to be on your arm
For people to see that you�re hers
She only loves your looks and charm.

She doesn�t ever want to talk
She doesn�t care about what you like
Her words are in chalk.

But mine are in permanent marker
Mine are real and true and written in big, curly letters
I�m the one that loves you Matt Parker.

But you�ll never know how I feel for you
You�ll never see this side of me
The part of me that delights in every moment that it�s just us two.

You�ve only ever known me as your best friend
So how can I let you know how I truly feel?
Because I�m afraid that you�ll get scared and what we have will end.

I imagine standing on top of the lunch table
Looking down on you and her immersed in each other
And yelling �I love you Matt!� like some crazy girl in a sitcom on cable.

I image taking you out to eat
Filling you up with fancy foods that no one can pronounce
And telling you I love you as my heart skips beats.

I imagine telling you those words that mean so much
Thousands of different ways, a million times
I say those words and my lips feel your touch.

But you don�t see me that way
You only see her
So I�ll lock away the things I long to say.

I�ll comfort you when she hurts you
I�ll help you plan the perfect date
Always ignoring the feelings that beat at me the way they do.

Maybe one day I can tell you all that I crave to say
And you�ll look at me lovingly and say�
�I feel the same way.�

Author's Note

advice, criticism, and all that welcomed and appreciated!

Reviews

[turtlegirlluver]

Wow, you have such a talent. I loved this poem so much. You show exactly how you feel and not only that, you show your thoughts and imagined endings. I can relate to this, almost too well. I think this poem is fine the way it is, it tells about what you are going through. Very good job! (Normally I pick out my favorite stanza, but in this case they are all so powerful, I could never chose just one.)

[i wish to win you with ..]

wow that was amazing... congrats u just wrote one of those poems where people can read it and say thats me with every line... i like it.

[An owl on the moon]

This is absolutely beautiful and painful at the same time, reminding me too well of the anguish that can so deeply strike us when one we love does not return our affection... You so poignantly show the devotion and angst that runs through the mind of one who longs for someone they may never capture with their attention. Yet, your last phrase is so hopeful that all could turn in that awesome moment. So good!!!! (And if true, you deserve that last phrase my friend!!!)