Loch Ness
A Poem by Lisa Williams
You are in my soap container. I see you as I tilt its plastic base back and forth, the cold red firmness cupped in my palm. The soap -- it used to be soap (is it soap still?) -- the hard white mass gone soggy from steam, from hot showers, turned the consistency of cream cheese, of slip at the bottom of a bucket, of water. The soap is water, white creamy water that rolls like waves as I tilt, and I see you.
You are a flash of black and you move. What (who) are you? I try to find you with my finger but I am hesitant (afraid) to touch you. I try to uncover you with waves, but never make contact because I am afraid
(that you will be alien that you will bite me shock me taint me that on touching you I will be startled and shriek, waking those still sleeping in the room adjacent, dropping the plastic container with a crash and a threat to the safety of my toes, spilling the soap that is water down the drain).
I wonder what (who) you are. A black flash, a pebble, the curled, drowned body of a spider
(so similar to the one I found in my glass as a child, who had fallen into the water and couldn’t escape, who drowned and was found by me in the morning as I took a sip, who scared me, who still scares me so that I have never left a drink uncovered and unattended since that day).
I tilt the container more, spilling the soap that is water over my feet, and I mourn for what is lost. I feel the bottom of the base, hard with bumps, unseen, cold. The soap is shallow and I know you are not there.
I wonder where you went.
© 2011 Lisa Williams
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Added on September 20, 2011
Last Updated on September 20, 2011
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