Emotions, Comotion and feel overloaded

Just a vent of mix emotoions

I don't know where any of these feelings came
I just remember the smile I use to be able to paint across my face
I want you to realize everything everyone believe is a lie
All I ever wanted was to be held

Hold me threw the night with the embrace of your arms and the sweet scent of your charm
Breathe with me and soon you see, what on the outside is just a white lie
I cant stand to cry I cant afford to loose my mind no more
My heart cant afford to be sore

I hide on the other side
Cause this side has one to many goodbyes
When you take your heart away
Your world becomes so gray

I know i'll always come short in this dream
Because protecting myself ment loosing everything
But just for one night.. Id like for someone to hold me night
Dreams are dream for a reason though
So lets paint on are faces and go bye