Free The NeuronsA Poem by Indra's ChildIt was in my distant past That I cared enough to tell you Just how horrible I felt inside How I felt stuck to my own life... With the most toxic, indissoluble glue. Now, however, it's different, You hold me hostage in this position, I fake smiles and crack jokes and never let on Because I'm afraid that if I try to leave again Your compassion will have gone If I try and fail, that you will cry, and yell, And scream at me- All of the things you feel you should have done, Differently... All of the things you could have phrased less, Frantically... All of the people you wish had never Been around me... All of the times you wanted me to act less, Dramatically... While every day you make the blame mine, Every day you wonder why I feel I have no time... Everything, you know, you could have done less, Erratically... But I don't really care. Nope, that's not me. I'll trail off, into the silence of another room, And keep on waiting, inevitable doom? Waiting for the time to come when I can Finally leave Waiting for that first breath of air away from you, To define me, Or at least someone I'll want to be, I'll want something, Anything, anyway, I know I'm not supposed to feel this way But I think, this is where I'll stay... Until I breathe, that first breath, that it might be my last.. I will keep wondering... What it will be? Will it give me hope,
...or will it set me free? © 2017 Indra's ChildReviews
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2 Reviews Added on December 21, 2017 Last Updated on December 21, 2017 AuthorIndra's ChildOakland, CAAboutI just want to wake up from the dream. "Hi. It's me. I know you're out there. I can feel you now. I imagine you can also feel me. You won't have to search for me anymore. I'm done running. Done hid.. more..Writing
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