silent scream

couldnt sleep last night.....

You say you can see,

well then why dont you open up your eyes.

You say you know whats happening,

then why do you put me in these situations.

Your hearing must be pretty bad to,

you dont seem to hear the flesh ripping,

the tears falling,

or the silent screams shattering my world.

How can you say that you love me?

How can you say that you care?

It feels like you enjoy seeing me,

knocked down and kicked around.

"What doesnt kill you only makes you stronger",

thats what you say.

Well in that case I guess i'm pretty f*****g strong,

because it feels like these little pieces of me have been dying for a while now.

 

 

 

You tell me I should trust you,

because if I can't trust you then I wont ever trust anyone.

I think I would rathe live a cold and lonely life,

than live my life trusting those who hurt me.

You say your doing it not to hurt me,

but to help me.

Why not help me out of this HELL that you created for me.

Oh wait I know why,

but you wouldnt want me to say that would you?

Because even though you never beat me burn me or physically abuse me ,

you make sure to laeve your mental mark.

No, you've never abused me,

not in ways that people would notice.

But answer this,

would i have ever started mutilating myself if not for you?

Well I'll admit that the blame doesnt fall only on you.

 

 

 

Well what is there to say about you?

Do I really hate you,

or do i just feel rejected?

I'm thinking i hate you because you rejected me.

Why spend money you supposedly dont have to buy my love.

yet you cant manage to to pay child support.

What the hell is that all about?

I kinna feel sorry for you sometimes.

You really messed up this time.

How are you gonna spend those lonely years?

You gonna try to call me?

Try to email me?

Good luck a*****e.

you wonder why and how i became so attached to them men mom brought into my life.

Maybe it was because you werent there for me.

when I neededsomeone to dry my tears,

guess who was there for me.

Never you.

I mean dont get me wrong,

 im not saying they were perfect,

 but while they were in my life they cared.

 

(theres more but i dont have time to type it up at the moment.)

Author's Note

the first paragraph is towards more than one person but the rest are for one specific person.

Reviews

[Revenge<3'sMe]

The first and second are so true for me. You are amazing at capturing the truth, keep it up!

[Coyote Poetry]

A very strong poem. You made some very important points. No-one want a liar around. Trust is hard to gain. Easy to lose. Sometime words can do more abuse the pain of physical abuse. A excellent poem.
Coyote

[The Cute 1]

omg awsome

[Cassiopia Summers]

Need to talk?

[Cherrie Palmer]

this is a good use of anger to propel your feelings and lead the reader

[china]

Anger and demanding answers to life's questions, sometimes the answer people give just doesn't come fast enough or is good enough. I hope you will add more to this write, I'm curious about the end. Thumbs up on the write.

[red_saphyre]

yeah somethin like that... i might add more later tho...

[Sqishii]

when i first read it, i was kind of passive toward it. but now that i read it for like the 5th time now, this poem shows strong emotion toward someone or another.. i really love the beginning as you describe the flaws of this person's senses! not too much, not too little- just enough to get the image across.