Pretending

I bash your name
I glare at you
I try to ignore your very existence

I write hurtful things about you
I hold a grudge against you
I say that I don't care

But I have started to question myself
My feelings
Do I mean what I say?

There are moments when I do
But there are other moments
Where I just miss you

I have moments when I just miss us
Miss what we had
Miss the looks you gave me

I sometimes feel
Like I pretend to hate you
But when you aren't looking

I can't help

Wishing
Things were different

Author's Note

idk....please rate and let me know what you think

Reviews

[M Garcia]

People who confuse you are idiots. Keep up the great writing.

[Coyote Poetry]

Those wishes leave us confused and wanting. I like the poem. We all feel the same in a lifetime. Wished we said nothing. Wished for better goodbyes. A outstanding poem. Thank you.
Coyote

[.]

"I can't help
Wishing
Things were different"
(this is a sentiment i think we all wish)
A lovely poem !

:)

[Shawn Killian]

I can't help
Wishing
That i was as good of a writer as you

[Geralyn Miller]

Times like that, hug your dog and have a good cry; the dog will always love you and the feeling of longing will pass and lessen with time.
You have a gift for illuminating simple events that are common to everyone. Keep writing.

[Poetic Beauty]

AAAh we all have moments when we feel like this. Old saying. "There is a thin line between love ad hate." We can love someone but be mad and hurt by their actions at the same time.

[Buddhistboy73]

Mmm, interesting piece...conjures up images of "the middle way" for me....i.e. we usually feel a combination of things when relationships end, and it is complicated, and I think you convey that well here....

[Calypso]

I feel the same sometimes. There's someone who has hurt me and there are times when I want her to burn in hell, but other times I want the best for her.

[Intern'l Shultzfeather]

Soul pushing through now ms. w, have a good life.

[JanieB]

Most of us have been in this place..Well written.