11:11 I love you

the day I lost my husband

On 11/11 at 11 am you called to me
with fear in your voice and a pain in your head
strength was turning to weakness
as your body attacked you
your insides in pain
try to stay calm babe try just to breath
like a movie I watch
paramedics and ambulances
doctors and nurses scurry about
no answers
confusion
tubes
blood
tests
pain
tears
surreal as I sit near a hospital bed
holding your hand
talking to you
hoping you can hear me
please hear me say
“you come back to me ok”
I watch machines breath for you
machines do everything for you
I feel as helpless as you look
A chaplain says peaceful words
as I dont understand what is happening
I feel you cross over at 11pm
I feel my soul lift with yours
I hold your hand
as you take your last guttural breath
dont know how to walk away from you
kiss your head
kiss you lips
ask for your wedding ring
tears that never end
husband for always
love always wifey
11/11 I love you more

Reviews

[Patricia B. Hepler]

Again, very powerful. Again, thank you for sharing your soul~~ pat

[Christina]

I am desperately sorry for your loss. I won't say that I understand, because everyone handles things differently. I will just say to remember the greatest times. Treasure them. Protect them. Let yourself be angry. Let yourself be sad. Let yourself be happy. Any emotion you feel is OKAY, and you need not have anyone validate them.

[Legolas]

Im so sorry. This is heartbreaking. Thank you for sharing.
One small grammar issue: 17th last line: breathe*

[Eun Jee Nikki Kang]

I'm sorry for your loss, but your love is undying and I'm sure your husband knows it too. Especially if he had read this.

[Hopelessly Confused]

I really loved it. It brought tears to my eyes but I'm sure its nothing compared to what you went through. It was such an amazing poem.

[-TweetyBirdd.!-]

it feels like i was really there, like i really went through what was happening in this poem. its so sweet, i love it:)

[Coyote Poetry]

I feel a sadness in the words. Story was very good. You took me on a wild trip. Ending left me confuse. A strong and intense poem. A excellent poem.
Coyote