Aimee Mahathy

Aimee Mahathy

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28 and feeling more like Bukowski than ever

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Bloomington, IL
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About Me

It's been a long time, and I may not have much to post just yet.

I've officially outlived my expectations and am 31 this year!

After having numerous near-death experiences which resulted in a terrifying couple of years, I've returned to writing as a place of solace and the rediscovery of myself.

During those years, I swear my entire being was reset after being shattered in probably the most intense mental breakdown I've ever experienced.

Since then, I've been working diligently to repair myself and find ways to make the most out of living. I suppose in realizing that I want to live, I had to make a LOT of adjustments. And inner adjustments are the strangest things.

That said, I'm doing the best that I ever have. Times are fairly stable and predictable now that I've sworn off drinking and have been sober for over a year. My brain's been repairing itself and it's just been a wonderful time, coming back to life. Like a subtle Frankenstein's monster lol

I do have quite a few poems and bits of writing that I'll be posting here soon. I actually managed to write my way out of psychosis (My new diagnosis being Bipolar 2, it seems that mania can do that sometimes.) and I've since filled about 3 notebooks in that time.

I hope you all will enjoy what I've brought back from my unexpected spiritual reconstruction, and I hope you all will still find my writing enjoyable. It may evolve in style and content, but I am happy to share this evolution with you all.

In summary, I'm no longer seeking solace in a bottle and have risen to the challenge of being alive. I gave up smoking and am now on disability. This time is precious for my healing and I spend it with my two cats, my partner, and my soul-driven mission to unravel the tangle in my mind and discover all the avenues to wholeness and wellness as they relate to living as myself.

This world is filled with beauty and complexities and love, and while some of it may be dark and deep, threatening to pull you into the belly of the maelstrom till you're weighed down with confusion and agony and so much heaviness-- there are still sunrises and golden afternoons and the first fresh breeze of springtime after a long, treacherous winter.

That breeze is what life feels like to me right now, and I feel as though I am finally ready to re-enter the world exactly as I am. Imperfect, growing, clumsy, but full of adoration for this wild, wide universe of ours.

Get ready, because I have so much I need to relate to somebody, anybody, everybody. This is going to get good, I promise 💖


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Posted 8 Years Ago


Hey stranger, haven't heard from you in a while.

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Posted 8 Years Ago


I've been fine, more or less. I haven't exactly found Nirvana, but I also have jumped off a bridge, so there's that lol

I see you've changed quite a bit. Didn't even realize you had so many blog pieces up (I forget there's blogs on here, even my own! lol)

Checked out some of your vid stuff too.

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Posted 8 Years Ago


glad to see you back.

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Posted 9 Years Ago


Keep crankin' 'em out...lol!

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Posted 9 Years Ago


Wow, you've been writing a lot!

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Posted 10 Years Ago


Me, creeped out? You needn't worry about that, dear. IF anything, with poems like "Camus: a letter to Crane" or "Fist F*****g Ur Mother" - I'd think you'd be the one spooked by me :P

Glad you were honest enough to say that those thoughts crossed your minds. So many ppl on here are so full of s**t.

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Posted 10 Years Ago


Wanna hear something funny? I've been up over 24 hours myself!
I once stayed up four days without even lying down. It's just I am prone to fits of isomnia. Hope all is well pal:)

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Posted 10 Years Ago


cool new hair, btw I'm debating dying my hair blue, but then, I would have to bleach it completely since I have pitch black hair, THEN die it blue, then keep dying it blue, lest it turn green - too much hassle for my lazy a*s lol

Slenderman? sounds like some new Watchmen super-hero...has the ability to squeeze into any slim-fit pants! lol

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Posted 10 Years Ago


ha ha - waiting for a masterpiece, true love, wisdom, winning the lottery...waiting in traffic - bleh lol

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Posted 10 Years Ago


yeah like 2 or 3 bucks for the proof. the 39 dollars puts them on other sites for sale but the basic sells them on amazon and sends you the royalties. I am submitting for the proofs tomorrow after I take a pic for the covers.