Journal Entry- June 4th, 2008 [[LIFE]]

Me as of NOW!....

I've been doing pretty good lately.....me and Jordan are OVER.....! and to be honest, I'm okay with that.....I realized that I was upset because I couldn't have Jordan.....not because I didn't want Jordan.....BEING WITHOUT LOVE IS SOOOOO EASY!.....

Artistically/Creatively.....I AM DEAD...!

Jordan is a great artist.....

okay....back to MY art......lololol

I need some type of inspiration or some type of revalation.....

Sometimes it feels like my issues with Jordan and life are holding me back....u know.....[[stunting my growth as an artist, and as a person.....]]

I have to remove this hatred from my heart and maybe I'll be able to move foward and GROW...

That is what I honestly want......

My strongest desire in this word is to grow.....and it's not happening for me......It's not happenin.....

Reviews

[Brittany DeFranco]

maybe u can look at some fantasy books and find something u like and draw what u see. at least ur happy with ur life right now, there are many other men out there. I'm in this new relationship myself, I dated this guy for a month and we're okay. But I think it'll be nice to talk to u. Read my journal of darkness to see what goes on in my life at the moment. e-mail me okay, I would really like to talk sometime ^-^
~Brittany

[Egan]

I know what you mean. Being an actor the pressure to grow will always be there. And yes your relationship with jordan has hindered you to a certian point. But I know you will be great. I cant wait to see you grow next year! I am over Roger I realize that the oppurtunity is draining. It drains my spirit and we cant have that now can we? Search yourself hun! Read write draw paint sing anything find the spark you had you when you first started. Do you remember the buzz you had after your first show? Find that again then call me and see how you feel

Love
Bri Bri

[John Stussy]

the best way to find oneself in creativity is to search for oneself inside, whether it be through philosophy, religion, mentality, or whatever. try it and see what happens.