Alone

Tell me lies.
Keep me from wanting to relapse,
Into thoughts of of ending it.
But at this moment;

I welcome death,
And even invite him in,
And beg him to stay,
Because you wouldn't,
Or couldn't,
And didn't.
And if I wasn't good enough for you,
Then maybe for death I would be.

Gravel beneath my shoes,
And I f*****g miss you.
But you left.
When I needed you most.
Sometimes you return in my dreams,
And offer me guidance.
And there I feel connected with you,
But I awake to a world where I'm not.
Whether it be paradise or inferno,
I wish to be there with you.

And now it is cold,
The seasons seem to change faster when you're gone.
But that's ironic,
As time seems so much slower,
And even dreadful.
I wish I could feel alive.

I journey through this forest,
And let these branches scathe away at my arms.
I can barely feel it,
As it offers nothing compared to the pain I've grown used to.

And as the blood covers the trail I leave behind,
I wonder if you'll follow me to it.
I find it doubtful,
And so I'll bleed out in this forest.
Alone.

Reviews

[Onlyme]

This is tragic, sad, heartbreaking and so raw. But passionate, heartfelt and so sincere. Please never alone or give up even in your darkest hour someone does care. When you're gone your gone for good. STop think and don't do thinking of feeling alone. As others do relate and understand your fears and woes. As they themselves feel them too. hugs Dawn. ps also sharing your emotions and getting them out like in your poem does help. believe me. I know that one from the heart myself.