Mothers & DaughtersA Chapter by AdeleChapter 1 “Oh my Lord, Belva! Could it be you?” A thirty-something woman
exclaimed from behind a tall, three-paneled, dingy cardboard menu. Her red
lipsticked mouth was grinning with tight-pursed corners as she whipped the menu
to the side to stare at the waitress in front of her. Her eyes gazed excitedly up
and down and she nodded with spray-glued peroxide-orange curls as she took in
all the details of the teenager. The waitress was dressed in grey standard issue, an
off-white apron with two deep bulging pockets with a pen sticking out of one of
them, beige nylon hosiery with a seam up the back, and old low-heel chunky
pumps. She wore a hairnet cupping her dark tresses close to her long neck and
shoulders and a name-tag that clearly said “Jane.” “All grown up and working already. Shouldn’t you be in
school?” She did not wait for an answer. “My oh my, Lord, Belva. Would you look
at you!” The girl opened her mouth but said nothing, frozen in her
tracks, with a note pad in front of her chest, posed to take an order. Her dark
eyes widened in surprise and tensed creating a deep furrow between her two brows.
She looked down a moment, shook her head, looked up and stammered, “Ah, what is
it… that I can get for you?” The woman observed the girl’s darker complexion and sculpted
cheekbones, “Got your daddy’s Indian blood I see.” She continued, “And so
skinny! Just like a beanpole! Won’t last long you know. I was your age when I married William. Three kids and each
one made a lasting impression.” She patted the pillow of her tummy hiding under
her floral print dress and grinned. A slightly older, slimmer man was quietly sitting beside her
on the wooden bench directing his attention to securing a safe place for his
narrow brimmed felt hat. He quickly snapped it up from the burgundy cushion
between them, where it might get squashed, to the table in front of him. The woman squeezed over a couple inches closer to the gent
and grabbed his hand the instant he let go of the hat, as if to clarify the
meaning of her commentary, then dropped it. “Not him, of course. I mean not his
kids. William’s.” She tried to explain further. “And he thought, William
thought, I wasn’t popping them out fast enough. So I had to go.” Jane’s quizzical expression deflated the woman momentarily. “You
married yet?” The girl shook her head no. “That’s when the fun stops you know,” she laughed, looking
once again at the man studying his Lamplighter menu. She leaned in and tapped
him on his thigh looking for agreement. He
smirked quietly and picked up his menu as if he did not wish to get involved in
the discussion. “Don’t think we ever even went on a date. Not ever. Not even
to a picture show that I can recall. Maybe one. William just saw me. Liked what
he saw. Made the arrangements and that was that. 16 years old and never had a
chance to do any living. Just didn’t know any better. Down on the farm, you get
yourself married soon as you can.” Jane shrugged her shoulders and waited for the order,
unsmiling but totally captivated. “And then it was all set to makin’ babies. As though that
was all the fun I was ever ‘sposed to have. Know what I mean? And… it… (pause)
wasn’t any fun, I tell you. Not like it is for the guys, you know. Right?” She jabbed
the man again with her elbow who responded by rolling his eyes upward. She turned back to the waitress to exclaim loudly. “Course
you don’t know yet! I sure hope not. What kinda mother would you have if you knew
anything about such stuff at your tender age. You can’t blame me now do you? My,
oh my, Belva!” A man in a business suit seated at a table across from them
turned on his bench, raised his large body and stared at the waitress sternly.
The girl observed this, ignored it for the time being and asked for the
couple’s order again. “We’ll make it easy for you” she said quickly. “And both
get the Salisbury steak with mashed potatoes and peas,” she leaned her head
sideways to glare back at the impatient intruder. “Costs a bit more but it
sounds classier than a hamburger.” When Jane returned with their order, the older woman picked
up on the conversation again. “This kinda reminds me of the only other fun we
was ‘sposed to have down on the farm. And that was entertaining folks. Kinda
like what we’re doing now. ‘Cept everyone’s in the kitchen not a nice
restaurant like this. You are ‘sposed to slave over the stove all day, then serve
us and catch up on old times. How long’s it been? “Over ten years,” Jane responded as she placed two plates in
front of them. “My this looks so good! Gotta save room for desert!” She elbowed her partner again and gave him a
wink. “OH MY! How time flies when you’re having fun. So this is fun, isn’t it, Belva Jane. It’s kinda like the
fun your family’s used to, isn’t it. Lots of folks getting together. You’re serving us. And it’s
even better because someone else is actually makin’ the food. We don’t mind. In
fact we’ll let you treat us, if you want, so it really feels like family.” Jane barely caught the remark and did not have time to
disagree as she had already turned her back to serve another customer from her
tray. When she returned the woman leaned in to talk to her, lowering her voice
in a confidential manner. “That’s actually why we came in tonight. We were feeling
kinda bluesy because we were out of money on a Friday night. Imagine no money
in our pockets to go out and enjoy ourselves. And we remembered that we’d heard
you worked here. Of all the miracles in life, you couldn’t believe how much I
consider this to be that. A miracle! You don’t know how much I’ve really missed
you, missed seeing you grow up, honest!” Jane remained silent, keeping her thoughts to herself, as
she took in the woman’s confession. “This here is my boyfriend Ray, by the way, he’s a keeper. Not
like most of the guys you’re going to meet who’re just wanna get their paws all
over you and not even buy you a nice dinner, a real gentleman.” She squeezed the
hand of the man who looked a bit older, a bit slimmer, and a lot quieter than
the woman beside him. He smiled meekly. “We believe in going out, not like your family ever did. Having
fun every once in a while. Like here’s Friday and you got tips in your pocket I
bet.” “Only a bunch of nickels from coffee customers, and a few
quarters mostly from the lunch crowd,” Jane answered quickly. “Oh can’t even believe it. You’re in the big city now girl, New
Albin, not down on the farm. Folks tip pretty good especially on a Friday night
and you been working all week. Show me!” she demanded tapping her finger on the
table. Jane obliged by pulling the change out of her apron, leaving
a pile of quarters, nickels and dimes on the table before them. Just then the
businessman behind her called out “Dearie?” and Jane turned to take his
request. When she returned, the red head was bobbing up and down, counting
the change on the table. “Naw. Don’t believe it. You haven’t been nice enough
to your customers. Like that ol’ man behind us. You don’t talk enough, or
smile.” She leaned in and whispered, “If you let him touch you, lean over and
let him have a good look, you can double your tips.” She winked, paused to let
her advice settle, then demanded, “What’s in your other pocket?” Jane fingered her other bulging pocket with the pen in it
and the pad. “These are just some checks I haven’t put in the register yet. Pay,
not tips.” She pulled a handful of tabs out with a few bills and some change
and laid it on the table. “Honey, lemme show you.” She advised, assuming a helpful
tone. You need to offer to get us
something to drink with this too. ”She turned to the man and said, “Ray? Whatcha
want. Mind you, they don’t serve any beer.” The quiet man said his first words, “another cup of coffee’s
okay for me.” He looked up at Jane, and gallantly quipped, “Cupcake, fill her
up!” as he tipped his cup. Jane’s eyes were still on the proof she had laid on the
table. She nervously reached over to grab it. But the woman gestured her hand
aside, pushing each coin to the side carefully. “Big Cola for me
dear, and don’t just make it mostly ice this time. I know what you’re all doing
trying to fill it up with too much ice so you don’t have to give up the real
merchandise.” She commanded keeping her eyes on the coins. “Start thinking more
about your customers and you’ll get bigger tips, now, run along.” When Jane returned with the drinks she noticed that the coins
were missing from the table. “You can’t do that! I need that money!” she pleaded,
trying to keep quiet so no one would be alerted to the problem she knew she
foolishly stepped into. “Oh come on now, calm down. We expect to come into some cash
tomorrow and will pay you back. You can’t spend it now anyway, being underage
on a Friday night. You should just go home and do your studying now.” Jane shook her head and scowled. “For heaven’s sake, Belva, it’s been too long since me and
Ray have had a good night on the town. I used to have great work during
wartimes but they cut us off just like that when the boys came home. I’m out,
still lookin’. Was proud to do my share,
now we’re ‘sposed to get back to makin’ babies. You don’t wanna remind me of
the olden days.” Jane mind was flooding with memories that she was doing her
best to hold back. Right now she needed to protect her interests here in the
diner, her job, her money and not call attention to the problem she knew she
had helped to create. “I gotta pay Mrs. Moots. Since I’ve been working I don’t
help around the house as much and I am trying to finish school, get a diploma.” “What do you need that for dearie, with your good looks.
You’re gonna snag a keeper like my Ray in no time.” She squeezed Ray’s arm. “Tell you what. We’ll just consider that dinner’s on you
tonight, like a good old farm girl. You had the pleasure of our company and
didn’t even have to cook! Jane fidgeted nervously in their presence then tried to
strengthen her position. She leaned into the table, and tried to object
quietly, without creating undue attention. “But…” “Now you don’t want me giving you a lecture about how you
was raised or anything to be a selfish girl.” The woman interrupted. “ So we’ll
just consider this money to be a loan and pay you back before it’s missed. Tell
ya what, we can be back in here on Sunday. Mrs. Moots won’t miss it.” “I don’t work Sundays,” Jane said “Sure you don’t!” she replied saccharin sweetly. “You’re a
good old country girl, wouldn’t miss church I’m sure. Still go to church? Isn’t that the other kinda fun times we
were ‘sposed to have living down on the farm? Socializing, putting on airs,
wearing our pretty dresses once a week? Flirting with the minister. All looking
holier than thou. Then the whole rest of the week we got dirty in so many ways.
You know what I mean?” She did not wait for an answer, but blurted with a loud generous
tone. “God, talking with you about it makes me really glad I’m out of there.
And now on our way to have a good time. Because
of you sweetie! See we can still have some kind of re-lation-ship. I’m certain
you feel good about giving me and Ray this money in our time of need.” “Lending it,” Jane said slowly, realizing she’d been
defeated. “Since you’re off on Sunday, we’ll come in sometime during
the week and pay you back, get a cup of coffee or something. Maybe when you’re
not so busy as on Friday night.” “No, I can come over on Sunday to pick it up.” Jane offered.
“Be glad to stop in and see where you live. Maybe…” her voice trailed off and
picked up some distant hope. She shifted her weight and pleaded earnestly, but softly. “It
would be wonderful, if we really could… maybe start over some way.” The
teenager looked as if she was desperately seeking the right words to say. “Or I could help out around the house… or…” The woman recoiled from Jane’s earnest pleas. Her face clouded
like thunderstorms on the horizon, as her lipsticked smile fractured into a twitching
scowl. She looked at Jane with piercing eyes and leaned in as close as she could
to the girl, who was standing still quietly waiting for her response. She held red-orange
painted fingertips between her face and the older man on the other side of the
booth. “And you’d just love,”: she whispered menacingly “to sashay
aroun’… and wiggle your skinny arse… and pretty bitty t*****s… all over my
boyfriend now too, I’ll bet.” Jane recoiled, her eyes looked like a doe caught by
surprise. The woman changed her tone abruptly again and raised her
voice as if she were only joking, and laughed. “You gotta get your own, girl! Get out more! Don’t need your nose in the
books. Use it while you still got it; they don’t teach you that on the farm. We’ll be back in so you can pay the woman whose taking care
of you, now that you’ve run away from your family and left them with all those
babies to take care of. Oldest girls shouldn’t do that, you know. We heard all
about it. Didn’t you learn that at church about respecting your parents? But
never mind. I’d of done it too, you know. You know,” she repeated meaningfully, leaning in again and
adding a wink. “Glad I did. We’re alike Belva, no doubtin’ that for sure! Soon
as I heard it I thought, that’s my girl!” Her face brightened again, “Oh and that’s ok, we’ll save desert
for another time dear.” The couple stood up quickly and walked toward the door. Jane
watched and shook her head when she saw they really did not leave money to pay
the check. She had hoped it was all just a joke. Ray turned around suddenly and Belva’s heart lifted
expectantly. He almost ran into her while she was still standing at the table.
He smiled awkwardly, caught her eyes in his & put a nickel on the table
with a crisp snap. Ray shrugged his shoulders, adjusted the felt hat on his
head, smirked and looked into Jane’s disappointed eyes once again. Then he reached into his pocket and leaned
toward her, taking her hand as if to shake it and pressed a few more coins into
it. Watching him running after his girlfriend, Jane knew the
coins in her hand would not be enough to cover their tab and the confiscated tips
and receipts for the evening. She picked up the check and tried to follow the couple, already
half out the door. “Hey!” she called just loud enough to get them to turn around.
The redhead stepped back inside, “What, you expecting a hug
or something, since you haven’t seen me in so many years?” she said pretending
to be oblivious to the problems she had caused and embarrass the waitress
instead. “You’re a professional now. You wouldn’t like me slobbering all over
you when you got customers waiting for you to take care of them. Get back in
there!” She pushed Jane back toward the register. Jane tried to keep her composure dignified, realizing that
she had lost this round, and clueless as to how she could gain the upper hand. The restaurant owner noticed that something was amiss; Jane
was not at her station, and came toward the group blocking the doorway to his
establishment. “Everything okay over here?” Jane shrugged her shoulders, shook her head and stuffed the
check back in her apron, as the couple walked away. “Hey what did they order?” he asked. “What’s the problem? Where’s
your cash?” He could see tears welling in her eyes as she looked in the
direction of the distant couple. He seemed to guess that they were a no-pay and offered to
run after them. She shook her head and said emphatically, “I promise, I
promise I’ll pay you back.” “I told you Jane, you can’t be treating your friends here to
free dinner,” he said. She isn’t my friend, Mr … “That don’t make it any better,” he interrupted, trying to
be understanding but firm. “She’s my mother.” Jane let the week go by, another Friday and Elvira and Ray
had not shown up at the restaurant. Not that she really expected it, although
she still hoped and gave them the benefit of the doubt. She managed to earn
enough tips to repay her debt to the Lamplighter. She felt like she was able to even the score a bit by
finding out where the couple lived, just by asking a few questions. New Albin
may be a big city but it’s small enough that everyone knows one another’s
business. Maybe she could beat them at their game by surprising them in their
home the way they’d done to her at the Lamplighter Diner. After all, her mother
told her she’d pay her back this week. This was Saturday; she may be expecting
her visit. She found their house easily enough and knocked. When there
was no answer, she tried to let herself inside, but it was locked. So she took
a seat on the porch and waited for them to return. She observed that the porch
could use a good cleaning and a coat of fresh paint. She’d even be willing to
do that, if her mom wanted her to. Maybe that would be a way to get on her good
side and resume a relationship that she sorely missed in some big uncertain way. She thought about the last time she saw her mother. She was
little, barely five years old, crouching on the stairs, peering between the
rails on the banister looking at the door. Because her father’s back was
between her and Elvira, most of the conversation was muffled, some loud and
emotional, but she could clearly hear the part that interested her the most. “So what do you want to do about the children?” he asked in
a strong clear voice. She remembers
that she prayed, “Pick… me. Pick me, pick me, mom, please!” She also remembers a
contradictory thought at the same time. That she didn’t really want her mother
to take her away from her father. She liked him so much better. Bill was more fun,
took her for carriage rides, sang to her, taught her things. Elvira acted like
a scared little child most of the time, clumsy, uncomfortable in the role of
farmwife and mother. Which she was, exactly; Jane understood that now. She could hear Elvira responding, “Well William, Earl is
getting big enough that he’ll be a big help to you on the farm, and Belva will
soon enough too, I reckon.” Her heart sank. “Little Merlin, he’s just a baby. Will be more trouble than
he’s worth for awhile now. So I’ll take him and leave you the other two.” Her father barked back instantly, “Like hell you will,
woman! You don’t get any of them. Get out of my house!” He slammed the door and
that was the last the children ever saw of their mother, until now, Jane
presumed. She would be called Belva, which she hated, or Belva Jane
until she dropped the use of it when she ran away from home years later. That’s how Belva Jane came to care for a baby before she was
quite old enough to go to school. Bill remarried soon enough, a more
experienced woman, Esther, with a small brood of her own. Since Belva was the
oldest girl she was expected to care for her stepmother and the other kids while
the woman of the house punctually went about creating a new child every year to
help out on the Gordon farm. The farm was as large as possible, given that banks and
government interests had taken much away over a hundred-plus years. Originally,
she was informed, their property took in bits of Iowa, Wisconsin and Minnesota.
“So you can always spot it on any map or globe.” Her father told her stories of
her ancestors, the Rosses, who came to settle in the area, making peace with
the Indians. Part of the deal was the mingling of their races through the gift
of an Indian princess to her great-great-grandfather, John Ross, the leader of
the settlers. By their mingled blood he
would protect the Indians, share the land and farming techniques, and assure a
peaceful existence that would last over a hundred years. She didn’t know how much of her father’s stories were true.
Others in the family scoffed at them, told her he was making them up to please
her. But she would stare at her cheekbones in the mirror, and her olive
complexion, her dark hair and eyes and see a faraway resemblance to a quiet
Indian princess yearning to be free and live a peaceful coexistence with Nature
as her guide. Her only escape as a child was the one-room schoolhouse that
was packed with a dozen other kids in addition to the pride of Gordons. Belva’s
favorite memories were of her father packing all the kids in the carriage to
take them to school on snowy days. He’d put bells on the horses so they would
arrive in fancy form, feeling like Cinderella and Christmas all rolled into
one. Other days they were expected to walk two and a half miles
after doing their morning chores. Which was all right. Belva enjoyed running
ahead of her brothers. Earl teased her a lot, trying to make her feel stupid. He
liked to bring up special matters that made her feel creepy inside. “Looking forward to seeing your boyfriend?” Earl teased.
“Maybe Woody will come over after church again. Belva, you’d like that wouldn’t
you?” “His name isn’t really Woody, is it?” Belva asked, not suspecting
what Earl was up to.
“You just love it when he picks you up and twirls you
around. He tickles you all over and puts you on his lap.” Earl started grinding
his midsection again, this time making grunting noises. “He tells you how good
you look in your Sunday dress and touches your soft skin.” It took a while for
her to catch on that this was wrong. She was so innocent at the time, and
wished to remain so as long as possible. She recalled that Earl seemed especially proud in a
mischievous way to relate a time when he happened to walk in on Woody
unexpectedly and found him with his boots on. They were on their walk to school
when he told her. “You know what I mean, don’t-cha Belva?” he teased. “I mean
he’s got those big puddle rubbers on, that go clear up to the knee, and it
ain’t raining, and there’s not a lick of water even out there in the field.
HA!” “And the sheep are out there making bleating noises, I heard
them! Got it now girl?” She didn’t. He continued, “And all’s he’s got to do is grab one of them
and stick their back legs into those boots,” he laughed. “and they can’t go
nowhere.” She didn’t want to think about what Earl wanted to tell her
next, so she ran off, faster than he could catch up to her, and beat him into
the schoolhouse. Safe. She felt the seeds of distrust growing into hatred of
men, boys and their disgusting stories. Even deeper if these stories were true,
which she’d like to believe they couldn’t be. She wanted to believe in the
decency of men, that they were all as good and kind as her father. They wanted
to take care of girls and women. She wanted to believe that with all of her
heart. The problem is, sometimes the loyalties of men regarding whom
they should protect, the woman or the girl, becomes divided. Belva Jane’s stepmother, became more of a concern as her
temper became shorter over the years. She heard her own inner voice warning: When
mamma says “I’m seeing red.” You better believe you’d best get out of her way. She’d grab the first whoopum item she saw, a
strap or a fire-poke and apply it to whatever body parts she could reach. Time on the porch was passing fast. Jane couldn’t hold back
the tide of childhood memories crashing up to the day she decided to leave her
father’s farm for good. She was getting hungry, and there were apples on the
trees. So she picked a bunch and started munching them, leaving the cores on
the edge of the railing in a neat long row. She thought it would be cute to
just leave them there for her mother to see when she returned. To let her know
she’d been there for awhile, and that she’d taken care of herself and her
hunger with what was at hand. The apples on the rail of the porch reminded her of a time
she was fighting with Earl about who’s turn it was to do the dishes, to wash or
dry. They took their fight outside. Earl, being older and more secure, always chose whichever he
wanted first. This time she decided she
wasn’t going to take it. So she started swishing a towel at him on the porch, imitating
her mamma, and he bolted away screaming “Fine, you can just do them all
yourself!” She took off after him, confident that she could outrun and maybe
even tackle him. She saw her brother scoot under the barbed-wire fence and
followed. She was midway under the fence
when she felt strong hands clasp her ankles and pull her slender body straight
up and out. She felt the barbs of the fence cut into her shirt and deep into
her skin. The lacerations she endured reminded her of the scourge of
Christ himself. Belva tried to be more humble and accept it. She actually hoped
that something good would come out of it, like Christ. She prayed that folks
would feel sorry for her, tend to her wounds, that Esther would see those
stripes and cry. And change her ways. She imagined that her father would take
her side and intervene on behalf of the children. So this would never happen
again. They’d all live happily ever after. Instead Esther just tore open her shirt and slapped grease
on her back, maybe lard, to keep the wounds moist. “There, all better! Quit
your whining.” That was as close to an apology as she got. Her father’s face looked sad as he tried to explain. “Me and
Esther have a deal where I take care of the farm and she takes care of the
children. It’s got to stay that way, Belva. Love you, but that’s the way it
goes.” So it went. No too long after that, when it was time to return to
school, Belva realized she was not included when they were getting supplies in
order: knapsacks and pencils, notepads and books. She began to panic the first
day the house was quiet after summer, no other kids around except for the
youngest, and she was left alone with Esther. She didn’t object out loud, because she didn’t want to risk a
beating. She did the best she could to never upset her stepmother. Over the
years she had proved she was a quick study. She learned to clean and sew. Her
father knew better than to over-compliment her on her stitches, which surpassed
Esther’s only because a girl’s eyesight and dexterity are both better than an
older woman’s, of course. Belva also
enjoyed making basic repairs around the house and tending to the animals. But she yearned to go back to school. She was excited to see the schoolmistress walking up to the
house one day, and rushed to greet her. Esther ordered her to get back in the
house and Belva listened in on the stairs, once again, to try to hear what they
were talking about. She prayed that the schoolmistress would be able to
convince Esther to let her return to school. That was not to be. “Belva Jane’s help is needed around the
farm here and the law says she don’t need any more schooling after 12, so
that’s that!” Esther ordered the schoolmistress to leave and never come back. Belva Jane ran up to her room and packed the largest flour
sack she could find full of her belongings and took off, imagining that this
would teach her family a lesson. How could they get on without her? She ran into her father several months later. He seemed
happy to see her, hugged her, and inquired as to how she was doing. She told
him everything was great, hoping he’d demonstrate his love by begging her to come
back home when he saw how strong and grownup she’d become. She wasn’t sure how
she’d answer but she still hoped he’d, at least, ask. But he didn’t. Belva believe that God had showed his love for her by giving
her Mr. and Mrs. Moots instead. They were an elderly couple who saw the runaway
sitting at a bench with her flour sack at the train station, the only place
Belva knew where she could stay for long hours without arousing suspicion. Here
she could also wash up, use the toilet and sometimes, when lucky, even find
food left behind as passengers rushed to catch their trains. The couple took a seat beside her, one on each side, and
started a conversation. Where was she from, what was she doing here. She told
them she had been waiting for someone who hadn’t shown up yet. They told her
they’d wait with her; she assumed they’d give up. So they all waited together
and swapped stories to pass the time. After awhile of getting to trust one another, she got around
to telling them about the schoolmistress and Esther. Mrs. Moots made an excuse after
hearing that one, to take her husband aside. When they returned they told the
young girl that she should come with them to their home for some dinner, since
it was obvious that her party was not going to show up. At dinner, they pressed further, offering that she could go
to school near them, an even better school, in exchange for helping them with
chores that were becoming too much for them around the house. “A fair deal,”
they agreed. Several years had passed under this arrangement and they proved to
be true and good for one another. Sitting on the porch, waiting for her mother to return,
thinking about the ways their lives paralleled, filled Jane with a sense of
peace. Everything was turning out all right in the end, wasn’t it? “As it was
meant to be,” she thought. She actually felt sympathetic toward Elvira. Love would take
a little longer. Her heart ached for something more than she ever had, things
that were missing. She could understand why her mother left her family ten
years before. Perhaps they were alike, as Elvira had hinted. She would
like to know more. It takes strength and courage to leave, to walk out of a bad
situation and make something of yourself. She was beginning to feel almost
proud; eager to hug her mother and tell her everything could be fine between
them, better than ever. The blue veil of night was quickening and Belva knew
she had to find her way back home. Mr. and Mrs. Moots would worry about her. The next morning she was awakened by police pounding at the
door of the Moots house. Ray and Esther had filed charges against Belva Jane Gordon
for trespassing, creating a disturbance and theft of personal property. The
apples cores left on the railing were their proof. The police took the child away
in handcuffs, documented her as a 15-year-old run-away, and fingerprinted her
at the station. She spent a day and a night in jail until she was released back
to the Moots’, charges dropped, point well made. That was the last time she wanted to see her mother, and she
never got her money back. “Please don’t go yet,” I pleaded softly to my mother as she
flipped the covers over my body and the bed. The soft wind dance she created
with the fluttering sheets excited my imagination and I wanted her to stay
longer. “Tell me another story.” “Which one?” she smiled. I knew she enjoyed telling her
stories as much as I loved to hear them. I don’t recall her ever reading a book
to me. She never liked fairy tales. To this day she prefers true drama,
switching on crime and court programs on the t.v. She has the gift of the
Irish, I believe, inherited from her father along with her distant Indian
ancestry, for telling true stories, lightly embellished for added interest. “Maybe one about you and your mother.” I’d whisper softly,
not wanting my sleeping sister, Audrey, hidden in the darkness across the room,
to overhear the spicy details my mother was willing to share with me. I
pretended we shared secrets like girlfriends, and was eager to hear more. She would sit beside me and stroke my hair behind my ear.
Although the lights were turned out in our bedroom, my bed faced the hallway,
which was lit and provided a back glow to my mother’s slim figure in
silhouette. A window above my headboard allowed moonlight to dance across her
face providing a perfect stage and setting. She would tell me about her life on the farm, how she ran
away, and the trouble she got herself into, being young and naïve. She called
herself “stupid.” Sometimes I would cry for her, feel tears welling in my
eyes. She would soothe them away by telling me to see things from another
perspective. She always forgave her tormentors. Every one. But she couldn’t
resist ending each story with a doozy that left me wanting to hear more. “Oh,
no more tonight, Adele. I’ll save that for later. Go to sleep.” But I couldn’t fall instantly to sleep. I needed to repeat
her words and fill in the missing details, imagine the conversation, what they
may have said and how they may have dressed. I’d wonder what her mother looked
like, the color of her hair. I’d weave what I knew from visits to the towns my
mother grew up in and the people she introduced me to into my nighttime
reveries. I had seen a faded black and white photo of her stepmother Esther on
the farmhouse mantle, alongside one little girl’s pink patent-leather shoe. Esther was a large strong-looking woman, dressed in a shabby
faded floral housedress that billowed around a full figure, shut tight with an
apron. Her face looked stern, her eyes looked pained with a faraway gaze.
Something mean behind them, I thought, for sure, but also real pain. I could
picture the lady in the photo grabbing a kitchen towel, slightly moist from
drying a few dishes, twirling it into a weapon and whipping it swiftly against
a child’s dancing-out-of-the-way legs. I’d never seen a picture of her real mother, Elvira, but I
could conjure up a vision based on what I knew of her times. I had plenty of
time to do so as I lay awake at night, in the darkness, filling in the details
of my mother’s stories. I knew that girls on the farm only wore makeup on Sundays;
that a woman who moved into the city in order to experience more “fun” as my
mom said Elvira told her father she wanted, would wear makeup even on weekdays and
probably change her hair color. She had little money so she’d try peroxide and
other home treatments. If she tried a home perm overtop it would turn her hair
a strange color and texture, which satisfied my imagining since I didn’t want
to make Elvira up to be a more mature version of my own beautiful mother. I’d
make her plumper and more citified when I imagined the scene of their
restaurant meeting, the one where she took advantage of her daughter and stole
her tips. She would have been nervous and want to talk a lot, to explain
herself, make up for lost time by giving contradictory advice, and try to
distract the situation away from her small crime. The crime was small, my mother suggested, because it was
between family, and family members often hurt each other the most. Besides,
even if it could have cost her daughter a job, it was one that she was legally
too young to hold. I let my mother’s stories into my dreams, with my own
editorial spins, and would sometimes awaken with dialogue playing in my head.
I’d remain under the covers for as long as I could, trying to overhear more. I
could hear the faint jingling of sleighbells and catch glimpses of children
laughing and chasing one another in the snow. It broke my heart to know that my own dear mother had never
known the kind of love that she and I shared. The next night, as she tucked me
in, I’d ask her how she felt about certain things, gently, trying not to make
her so uncomfortable that she would not indulge my hopeful curiosity. I
admitted I did not think that I could be as forgiving as she had been. “I just put myself in their place. You never know how you
would behave in their situation,” she’d say. Her stepmother, Esther, the one in the photo, died of a
slow-growing brain tumor. “She couldn’t help what she did when she saw red.”
She’d explain. “When she was angry the
blood must of felt like it was exploding her brain. She must have been in
terrible agony. And she just shared it with us kids.” She’d look at me sadly with her dark faraway eyes, and even
accepted part of the blame. “After all to her, we were causing that pain,
through whatever we were doing wrong. She didn’t know what else it could be.” That night I closed my eyes and saw Bill Gordon’s lean
leathery face and imagined looking through his hollow eyes on the figure of his
twelve-year old daughter that he left all alone on the streets of New Albin. I
could see a figure that I imagined to be John Ross behind him as well, wearing
a rancher’s hat and holding the hand of his Indian Princess, who looked
remarkably like my mother. Their spirits would look after her, guide her in her
adventures, I believed. Her stories were sad and courageous. She was always
noble and proud. “I was just a stupid little girl from the farm,” she often told
me, especially when I tried to compliment her on her bravery. “A little dummy
who didn’t know any better.” My mother is dying, I know. She weighs 89 pounds and is
disinterested in eating. It pains me to type these words. We used to talk for
over an hour on the phone, several times a week, and now she is too tired to
talk and wants to hang up after only a few minutes. It’s the day before
Thanksgiving and she has selected a facility to move into. She has told me that
she may not be able to bear being tucked away in the guest room of my brother’s
home tomorrow, to hear the chatter and whispers of her family preparing a feast
she does not wish to eat. She would like to have another option where she would
not be a burden to anyone she cares about.
This past week, her stories are reappearing in my head every
night. Many times during the day, as well, her words interrupt my thoughts and
stir up pictures in my mind. Is it because her fading spirit wishes to share
them again with me? Or is it some guilty indulgence of mine that feeds my
longing to be close to her? I sit in a leopard fleece bathrobe and type on my computer
to capture the words and images. Sometimes I awaken as early as 4 a.m. and type
until 7:30 or so, until the images have stilled or I am called to do something
else. I’ve got pages going off in all directions, and still do not
know where this is headed, if anywhere, and feel that my mother might want to
know what I was up to. Two days ago I told her I was writing again and hinted
that she was the subject along with her stories. “You’ve always been such a story teller,” She laughed, using
a tone that could be taken as either accusation or praise. “Not me, mom, I got it from you, as you did from your
father,” I switched the blame. I could tell from a happy hum in her voice and
the stillness that followed that she was receiving it as a compliment. “The
Irish tie. You know you make an interesting feisty character, with your
chutzpah and courage. You’ve had an amazing life.” “That I have,” she agreed.
When I asked if she would like to hear any of it, she asked
me to save it for another time. I hoped to be able to write a lot so I could
share as much as she would want to hear with her, someday soon, in person. I
wished I could be with her to flip the sheets across her long, tiny body,
wherever she might be, so she could feel the wind caressing her and carry her
off if she wanted to fly. The sheets delicate landing would assure her that she
was safe. I wanted to hold her fragile hands, once again, hug her tense, scared
body, touch her soulful face and read her stories that evolved from the ones
she had told me very long ago. On the phone, I warned her that my versions of her stories
are based on the information she had shared with me many times before. But the
stories I wrote down had become colored by my imagination to fill in the
blanks, like the programs she loves to watch on t.v. “Oh you’ve always had a good imagination,“ she said, using
that same tone that could be taken either way. I chose to take it as passive encouragement to continue
recording the stirrings in my head, as quickly as they come, without regard for
outcome. I hope to be able to share bits and piece of the life of an
extraordinary woman who had the greatest influence on mine. Jane did not get a chance to finish high school. Once she
became employable, she felt she should no longer impose on the Moots’
generosity. In the late 1940’s with the glory of war’s victory behind them,
plenty of men were looking for women to enjoy and perhaps settle down with, and
Jane was fast becoming a very attractive catch.
She thought her first name of Belva sounded too country, now
that she lived in a larger city. The actress Jane Russell was becoming the
nation’s leading sex symbol. So going from just “plain Jane” suddenly escalated
in sophistication, she thought. “Going to the movies was a completely new experience to me,”
my mother told me. You would see these women larger than life, acting like no
one you’ve ever met before. They could take it with the best of men. And if the
men acted out of line, they would simply slap them.” I laughed, thinking that seemed like a fair deal. I could
accept being the weaker sex, if we could hold our own against the stronger one. “But I have to tell you, Adele, that doesn’t work in real
life.” Her eyes clouded dramatically. “No. It doesn’t, I found out. They slap you back. Once it came out that I was a runaway. That I had no parents
or anyone looking out for me. The way they treated me changed. How stupid I was
for being out on my own! It didn’t matter how classy I tried to be. I always tried to carry a chip on my shoulder, like they did
in the movies. You need to do that. A
little more detached. Not smile too much, not be gabby like the other girls.
When other girls opened their collars to show more cleavage, I’d dress the
opposite and button it up to the top.
The other waitresses would try to encourage me to get more tips by
leaning over a certain way, or letting men touch their behinds. Grrr
disgusting.” She growled. “Don’t ever be
a waitress, anything else, but not that! I’d go out of my way to make sure my signals were not that
kind. No one could ever say I flirted, I didn’t. But it didn’t matter. It also
didn’t matter how nice these guys acted before they asked me out on a date. A
lot of these guys were real nice guys. Just not to me or my low kind. They’d slap me. And I mean hard.” She looked away and
stopped. There she was again, giving excuses to those who hurt her,
and giving them the power. “Anyway after a while of this… s**t, I made myself a
promise.” She paused. “I vowed that I’d marry the first guy who said he loved me.
Even if I didn’t love him back.” Ken Pruitt walked into her life in a white suit and straw
hat. He looked slim and sweet and was always a gentleman to her. To tell the
truth, my mother preferred larger men, taller men who she could look up
to. She’d demonstrate her preference by
lifting her arms up as if to wrap them around a figure a half-foot higher than
her 5’7”. “Perfect, right here.” She was also more accustomed to tough guys, boys like her
brothers who would tease her, chase her, wrestle a bit, then let her go. She
learned to outrun and outwit them, and enjoyed the challenge. Ken Pruitt was not that kind of guy. There was never any
challenge involved in outwitting or outrunning him. “He was the kid of guy who would whine if he got sand
between his toes.” She wrinkled her nose in disgust. “We would go to the beach
and he would step carefully, keeping his shoes and socks on. Then he would lay
the blanket down just so, taking his time to get the corners just right. Sit
down in the middle, take off his shoes and socks, one at a time. Sometimes he
wouldn’t even bother. Just leave
everything on and sit there fully dressed, looking very uncomfortable the whole
time. Christ Almighty already I’d think. I’d quickly strip to my
swimsuit, kick my clothes into a pile in the sand, be ready to run & swim,
then turn back to take a good look at him, and think: Un-believ-a-bull.” She
shook her head. “Of course the minute someone ran or walked by him they’d
mess everything up. And he hated it. Couldn’t stand it. Not that he would say
anything. Just wince like a little goddam baby.” She shuddered. “And when he took off his shirt. Ah… let’s just say he was
not my type. He looked like the guy that gets sand kicked in his face in the
commercials. Who needs Weight-On. He looked pretty dressed up in a suit, but
without it… Oh God!” She gestured hands-off, shook her head violently and
grimaced with a clear look of disdain. “And I thought I was marrying someone older and wiser!” She
shook her head again. “But he was, in fact, it turned out, just plain goddam
stupid. Maybe not really, but I often thought so. Ken would get fired from every job he ever
had,” she said. “Then be ready to pick up and move.” They moved around a lot from town to town, following leads
for work for Ken. Factories were hiring all over the country revamping the
economy after the war. The couple discovered that, for reasons that probably
had to do with her good looks and the fact that men did all the hiring, that my
mother had an easier time getting hired first. With her strong work ethics and
fast learning skills she made a strong impression. They developed a technique
where each time they moved, my mom would get a job first, make a good
impression, then introduce her husband, who just happened to be available, to
the foreman. “It worked out well for a while, my mom said, “Then Ken would make
some blundering mistake, get fired and we’d be on the road again.” She was very pleased when they headed for the Miami area,
where the Mafia had invested a great deal of cash to prepare as a playground
for their bored wives. “Hey, what’s the favorite wine of an Italian American
Princess?” the joke goes. The punch-whine: “I wanna go to Miami!” “It seemed so glamorous!” my mother exclaimed. There was no factory work, so she got a job tending bar in
Ft. Lauderdale. For her it was perfect. She worked nights and had days free for
playing on the beach. “It was really the first time in my life that I really
enjoyed myself, by myself. I really thought I would be content to live there
for the rest of my life!” she told me. “And I was getting strong enough to realize that I didn’t
need a guy to take care of me. In fact I’d be better off without him.” When Ken
followed her into town, bringing his devoted mother to stay with him, she made
herself another promise. This time she vowed that if she were not pregnant, she’d
leave him. She was, so she didn’t. “From the moment Johnny entered this world,” my mom said,
“he reminded me constantly of Kenny. He even hated having sand between his
toes!” She laughed. But I taught him to get over it. I loved the fact that I
now had an excuse to take the baby all day to a place where Ken and his mother
did not want to go.” As long as Ken had a day job, and Jane worked nights, they got
along fine. His mother took over responsibilities for babying her grown son,
cooking and tending to his persnickety ways. He grew up particular about how he
liked his foods, his clothes and his mother was pleased to fuss and resume
caring for such details full time. She took very little interest in his wife or
child. It worked out until Ken lost his job again and started
packing. My mother convinced him that it would be better if he went first this
time. That she’d send them cash until he and his mother settled in, then follow
up after he had a job. This bought her enough time to make arrangements to serve
him with divorce papers. “I didn’t want attorneys involved, just to get it
resolved quickly and permanently.” She described her last scene with him. “I told him, I don’t want a dime from you. You’ve been good
to me and the baby. And he was. But you know, yourself, that you would probably
do better without us.” Ken talked it over with his mother and they both agreed it
could be a good deal. “Not a cent?” he asked, “ever?” “As long as you agree to never try to make contact with me
or with Johnny again,” she assured him. She recalls that his last remark to her was
uncharacteristically catty. “Great!” he told her.
“I’m sure I had more sex before I got married to you, than after.” My mother seemed remarkably proud of herself for her part in
that. The Fort Lauderdale establishment where my mother tended bar
in the early 1950s served a lot of servicemen on shore leave. Two of her
favorite regulars were a pair of marines named Joe and Don, who always showed
up together in snappy uniforms. Joe was the more sociable of the two, with dark eyes and long
lashes, always quick with a laugh and a long story. “Very good with the
ladies,” she said. Don was the quiet man, stronger looking and blonde, with
crystal blue eyes and broad shoulders. Just my type exactly. The right height,
right up to here.” She raised her arms in a high dancing position. “The strong
silent type, mmmm.” She smiled. “But, he never asked for anything more than a shot and a
beer. So I figured he wasn’t interested. And I started dating Joe on occasions
when he was in town.” One day Joe ran into the bar in a panic, asking if Jane had
seen Don. “He’s AWOL! And the ships ready to take off!” she told me he said.
“He’s in a shitload of trouble! This is the stuff you get court-martialed for!”
He ran out as quickly as he had come in, clearly concerned about the welfare of
his friend. He left Jane to wonder about whatever happened to that tall good-looking
marine. A few weeks later Don showed up at the bar. “Grinning ear to
ear. Totally nonchalant, as if he hadn’t a concern in the world.” Jane said. “I
told him everyone was looking all over for him, very worried. Where the hell
had he been? He just ordered his regular, without answering the question,
then asked me out!” She thought it was uncharacteristically disloyal for Joe’s
best friend to make a move while the guys were “out on maneuvers. Where Don
should have been.” She told him so, though maybe not in so many words. He just smiled, looking down at his beer. He drank his shot
quickly in one swoop, cocked his head sideways, and looked up at her with his
baby blue eyes. His one eyebrow arched over a cockeyed grin with a shrug that said
“So?” She answered “yes,” she admitted, and sighed. “Maybe it was a long story and he needed time to tell it. So
I figured it wouldn’t hurt to enjoy his company,” She said. “But it sure took
him a while to get around to it!” Everything seemed to going well, although she couldn’t
recollect exactly what they did or where they went. She felt wondrously safe
and beautiful just walking next to this Gary Cooper in his starched tan uniform.
She felt like they made a movie-star couple. The glances and smiles from
passersby confirmed this. She felt proud to tuck her hand around his elbow, and
stood up straight and proud, taking long-legged Jane Russell strides on the
April Friday streets of Fort Lauderdale. Up until this moment, she had been somewhat ashamed of her
height. Women in the movies were so petite and delicate. By the 1940s they
appeared to get stronger, more willful. But actresses still appeared to be a
head shorter than the men. So they could look up into their eyes and put their rosy
cheeks on their shoulders, to cry and throw tantrums if need be. “There, there, now, little lady. Everything’s gonna be
alright.” Sometimes you need big shoulders to cry on, and she had never had
that before. She took up smoking because she had been warned it could
stunt her growth. She wanted that. She asked Don to light her cigarette, and
held it high to show off her delicate wrists and long manicured fingertips. He
did. She blew smoke into curls in the air. She observed that he had the habit of holding his cigarette
rather sideways, and low. She liked that. It looked more like something
Humphrey Bogart would do. From that, she surmised, he might be a little tough
with her. But by now she felt confident she could handle herself. She could be
a Lauren Bacall kind of lady. She had the opportunity to take on this role by the end of
the evening, when he pressed himself upon her and made his moves. For all the
enchantment of the evening, and how special he made her feel, she did not want
him to be just like the others. She did not want to feel worthless this night. “So, I just let him have it!” she told me. “Really laid into
him! I told him to keep his goddam hands off me. That I knew he
wasn’t going to marry me. So keep your hands off, buster!” “What did he do?” I asked. He gave up quickly enough,” she admitted. “Then he turned to
me and said something like, ‘That’s how much you know.’ He was taunting me. But I finally got him to tell me where
he had been for the past three weeks.” Don went on to explain that the reason he went AWOL was to spend
time in Chicago, to find out how his family would feel if he married a
“divorcee with a three-year old kid.” He said he didn’t wish to start something with her, unless
he was certain that he could carry through with honorable intentions. He would
need the full backing of his Catholic family. And although he didn’t tell my
mother the full story when he asked her to marry him, if that’s what this
proposition was really all about, he actually needed the full three weeks he
went AWOL. “Anyway, now that he was back, he was in a hurry,” she
explained, “because his ship was coming in the next day. And he needed to
answer to his captain. No delays. I had heard this story before too. Or other versions. Good Marine
heading off on maneuvers. Doesn’t know when he’ll be back, or if. Honey please!
Give me something to remember you by! Jesus!” she begged in earnest imitation
of scenes she recalled. “But this bit about the big strong Catholic boy actually
going home to mom and dad to ask their permission to marry? That’s the icing on
the cake! Nothing could top that one! I didn’t think he had it in him. I guess I thought I needed to challenge him. Stupid huh?” she asked. “We barely knew each other. Or rather, he knew a lot more about me than I did about him.
From hanging out at the bar and seeing how I handled the customers. He liked
that I didn’t take any s**t from them. Didn’t flirt. Didn’t wear clothes that
showed off my figure. And he knew a lot about me from whatever it was that Joe
said. I didn’t take any s**t from him either. No hanky panky. None of that
going on. But what did I know about him? Not a goddam thing really. Liked his looks and the way I
felt with him that day. He said, ‘I’d marry you tomorrow if I only had the ring.’ And do you know what I did?” She asked then paused. “Stupid woman that I was! I just wasn’t thinking straight! Before I’d let him lay a finger on me, I wrote him a check
for all I had in the bank and handed it to him. ‘Here! Go buy me a ring and
let’s do this right!’” “What an end to a romantic evening!” I laughed. “Yeah right,” she answered. “The next morning I just sat and waited at the courthouse
steps for hours. Got there when they opened and waited til they were going to
close at noon. I just sat on those steps, all the while cursing myself. ‘Stupid,
stupid dummy! His ship is going to pull out and there is no reason for him to
show up. Now that you gave him all your money. Stupid, stupid farm-girl. You
never learn!’ I recalled how she’d lost her money to her mother and her
boyfriend a few years before. How she’d waited on their porch until evening and
got such a surprise the next morning. She’d given Ken a free exit from his
paternal responsibilities. So yes, this was a repeating pattern of hers, for
better or for worse. She more often ended up with the short end of the stick. And
I thought she needlessly beat herself with it. And who could blame the cowboy for just riding off into the
sunset? What would Bogie do? Do cowboys ever get the girl, in the end, really? “Just as I was getting ready to leave, at the very last
minute,” she continued. “There he was, running up the stairs with that s**t-eating
grin of his. My heart was just pounding! I don’t think we even said a word to
each other. I was in complete shock. We made it to the window just as they were shutting it,” she
said. “He had to run all over town to get a currency exchange to
cash the check. Normally not a problem for the servicemen. But it was a
personal check, larger than most. Then he had to go to every jewelry store to
find the perfect wedding ring.” I took my mother’s hand and admired her ring, a 3/4 carat
solitaire, very beautiful, classic simplicity, in a narrow platinum band. “Then after, we went through with it. Really almost on a
dare. Really, I think I just more wanted to see if he would. You
know, go through with what he said. We didn’t have any time together really. He spent the next three months in the brig!” “Sounds like you had a wonderful honeymoon,” I joked. “That’s how our marriage started and it didn’t really get
all that much smoother from there,” she said. “But I got the man I always thought I’d wanted. Decent and
strong, your father. Everyone would say that about him.” Don’s strong, silent demeanor masked a questioning
intelligence with the ability to handle problems quickly, decisively. Whenever he has the opportunity to lead, to
solve problems, he rises like cream to the top. He is definitely a man’s man in
the classic Bogie, Gary Cooper, Clint Eastwood style. Many years later, he did,
in fact become a leader of a thousand men, but not in the military. “Whatever happened with the court martial? Did that ever
happen?” I asked. “I don’t know that anyone knows the details, not even me.
Let’s just say the Marines gave your father an early General Discharge from
service. As you know, it’s just as well. He’s just not the kind of man who can
follow orders blindly.” Neither is my mother. For the next sixty years, these two willful
strong minds would make an amazing couple. After being released from military service, Don brought his
new bride home to Chicago to meet his parents, older brother and his wife. Don’s mother, Margaret, a strong Lithuanian woman, was the
one who was would not have been too keen on the idea of their marriage. She
would have been the reason why Don would need to talk to his parents before
even going out with a woman like my mother. She would oppose and stand firm until
compromise was met. She believed that her son could have his choice of any
girl. After all, she had been “It” in her day. It all made sense to me, of course. One of my earliest
memories with her was of being admonished when I was very young. We were visiting her restaurant and her back
was turned, so I called out “Grandma!” She turned abruptly on her heel, came to our table, and
leaned down to whisper coarsely at me, “Don’t you ever call me that. Ever. Again!”
“What would you like me to call you?” I asked, suddenly confronted
by the large arms and huge bosom in front of me. I needed to strain my neck to look
up past the mountains to her stern face surrounded by short curls that were
always dyed Clairol’s most fashionable reddish blonde. The figure stood up to flash me a big smile and looked up
into the air. She added a flourishing gesture, twirling her wrist and fingers,
as she surprised me with her answer. “RITA!” I asked my mother about it later, who agreed that this
response was a new one. She suspected she might wish to take a name that sounded
more exotic in her own place. A diminutive of “Margarita” would put patrons in mind of Rita
Hayworth, with whom she thought she had much in common, including both being
“It” girls. Clara Bow brought the “It” concept to the stage in 1927 and admitted
that while she didn’t know exactly what “It” meant, Lana Turner was certainly
one. Later she added Marilyn Monroe and Robert Mitchum to the list of “those
who could have anyone they wanted.” Peggy believed there was a time when she belonged on that
list. I could imagine her dancing flapper-style in beaded sequins. She could
have been part of Chicago’s roaring twenties, flashing her big smile into the
air, responding to the call of Rita. “Just call her Peggy,” my mom advised, “like everyone else
does.” And so I always have. Peggy also thought of herself as a free-spirited
businesswoman. She purchased property near Bridgeport, during the Al Capone era
in his territory. She was proud to keep it in her own name since she bought it
in bargain times, when the economy was collapsing, with money she made catering
and tending bar. She liked to hint that she served some of these more colorful
elements of Chicago notoriety, including certain underworld figures that must
remain nameless. “I have my secrets” she enjoyed saying. She also had her prejudices, although she refused to admit
them. “Why don’t you go for a nice Jewish girl?” She asked, when Don
visited her before he got married. “See, it’s not that I’m prejudiced! I’d even give into that, being such a good Catholic as I am.
See?” She thought she was demonstrating how very open-minded she was being
about the situation, willing to compromise even on issues of faith. “I’d rather see a good-looking guy like you -- who could
have any girl -- marry into some money…” she paused. “than some dirty Irish farm-girl… Oi Yesus!” she exclaimed
theatrically. “God forgive me! And one’s who’s divorced! Oi! With a child!
Oi! Yesus, Yesus, Maria!”
In the end the good businesswoman negotiated a compromise
based on which aspects of the truth they could color. She advised her son that,
if he chose to marry this woman, they should just tell the family that the child’s
father died in service to his country, which would be more acceptable. The rest, they would need to work through, as best they
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Added on February 3, 2016 Last Updated on February 3, 2016 Tags: Mothers, Daughter, women's contemporary issues AuthorAdeleDurango, COAbout15 years ago, I traded my hi-pressure city life for one in the mountains of Colorado. Most of my days, now are blue skies laid back. I have written hundreds of pages over past dozen years, based on l.. more..Writing
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