Thoughts

Sometimes summer is worse than school.

Summer is supposed to be wonderful,
But why can't I relax in a way that's peaceful?
I just want peace nothing more,
But why does my sadness travel deeper into my Body's core?
I was supposed to feel happiness this summer,
But more and more everday I wish to melt away like butter.
I'm not happy I know that much is fact.
My anxiety is worse than ever and I want to take the torture back
I can't wait three years
Just the thought of going back brings me to tears.
I just want someone to tell me it's okay.
I want to tell someone how hard it is for me to keep these negative thoughts at bay.
But who can I tell?
I would tell her, but the promise to keep it secret will only fail.
And I would never tell the other one due to her being so petty and immature.
What can I do that will help my internal pain to not leave me so sore?
I just want to start a new life,
I want my thoughts to stop making me know how it feels to be stabbed with an internal knife.
I dread waking up everyday
One can only hope that my anxiety will someday go away.

Reviews

[Emily Muir]

I can very much relate to this poem, i think it is well writen and holds alot of emotion and not being able to talk to others is hard but i feel your poem really expresses how you feel.

[Onlyme]

Expressing your feelings and sharing them in poetry as you have done does have a cathartic healing process. And being kind to yourself also. And writing about how you feel in a diary or something like that also my help explore those feelings that affect you the most. And get them out.