Reality In Your Hands

It's nights like these, when I think the most...
When endless thoughts are my devoted host...

I see pictures and hear sounds...
Remembering, "hey, you've walked those grounds" ...

It's the realization that really burns, though...
When you finally see that you have it all,
But there are still a few things that you need to let go...

You always want what you can not have,
But you know what - what you have now, probably isn't that bad...

Though, here's what a lot of people "have" missed:
Everyone can have what they think they can't,
It's simply a matter of moments in pain,
But because of those unwanted moments, this thought is dismissed...

I "am" such a hypocrite for saying that's how I feel,
When I , myself, do not want my life to have that appeal...

I don't want the people I know and love to dispise me,
But at the same time, I've got to quit with this self - pitty.

What is it about reality that is so threatening to us..?
Not being able to "avoid" the truth or screem and cuss?..?

How can one person be so attatched to another,
When they hardly truly know each other?

How can you be possitive that you have found "the one" ,
When you've only met,
Few to non?

You can't!

And that's the issue at hand...
I belong to this temporarily ignorant youth,
So tell me, why does it seem I am of so few that somehow
Understand???