To R

I hate myself sometimes 

and you're the reason why

I hate that I walk around dreaming of you

you're everywhere in my mind

I am a sober person

but you make my mind spin

And when the words come gushing out

I feel anxiety swiping by

There is something about you I can't explain

I've never seen it before

Your eyes shine so bright and you're so calm

like the steady rock I've been looking for

If I'm a crushing wave then you're the calm ocean

If I'm a hurricane then you're the air around

If I'm a fragile leaf then you're the tree

- your roots clutch deep into the ground

I think I could be just like you

only that you know where you stand

I jump around on unsteady legs

never really standing down

-and when my legs starts shaking

   - I go crashing to the ground 

Sometimes I wonder if you're a dream

maybe just an Illusion

A shiny picture I've created in my head

Something that soothes that stab of pain

that life throws at me everyday

I can't decide if I want you or not

if I should love you or hate you

I think I know

I can't write it down

cause that would mean that I'm falling 

deeper than I want

into the tunnel of your mystique 

I created this picture of you

and it's difficult to let it go

But I know that I have to

Cause I've got some healing to do

Reviews

[Kyra]

Wow, I love this poem !! (:
I really like how you write !
I can feel and understand exactly what you are saying and feeling.
I LOVE poems that are emotional and allow me to pull from my own experiences and feelings (: THIS is defiantly one of them.

[cfix]

I sincerely like this,
Your words have so much depth
and so much feeling.
Very nicely written as well.

[J.A.N]

Every word, every line, everything
about this, this is beautiful.
I can feel it, too.
These feelings that swirl throughout
this, I can compare to what's going
on inside my head. How true, how amazing this is...
but I could never write how I felt.
And here you are, your words slipping off your tongue
and how effortlessly this seems, like you just cleared
your mind and set free everything inside.

great write;
-j