~~~Long Ago~~~

March, 2017

I've lived too much of life
I know how to live on the edge of a knife
And only one thing I've found to be true
Once a door closes there's no way through

So I slammed the door shut
and twisted the knife in my gut
But the door closed on your foot
And you swore to remain put

I crushed your heart and burned deep
But you stood your ground and started to weep
Seeing you broken my knees gave way
And I fell somewhere between the gray

Lost between good and evil, left and right
Basking in the sun but only Shadow in sight
Falling through myself but somehow bound
To the weightlessness of solid ground

A beautiful contradiction in perfect sync
Everything I am brought to the brink
Yearning to be free
As I collapsed to my knee

To the dirt my body commanded
To the stars my heart demanded
My soul separate from the thud
As on my body dried the blood

My lips whispered goodbye
Not a tear, nobody there to cry
My soul proclaiming hello
To freedom I should have embraced long ago

My body laid with the knife in it's chest
No longer to be haunted and depressed
Finally I felt like I was blessed
Because I finally feel at rest