A huge mess

I'll steal your heart." You're not stealing anything! People have tore me down, have bullied me, have made fun of me, have made me cry... And yet I'm still here.... People have broken me and I carefully put myself back together...  you are not going to break me. People ask me "why I'm so tense and why I keep my hear locked away and why whenever someone says they love me I flinch or say "no you don't". Mostly because I'm a mess. I'm a huge emotional mess that is still trying to find herself and her voice, someone who is still trying to fix the pieces the last person broke. The girl that doesn't know what the  but never shows it because who cares.The hell she's doing with her life but still lives anyways... The girl that still feels pain everyday, 24/7 but never shows it because who cares. The girl that always hides her true feelings. Because when I do share feelings they are normally misunderstood and when I ever I do I feel vulnerable... So i keep my heart locked inside putting an invisible shield hoping no one will break through.... Because I don't want to pick up the pieces..... Because if I do I swear to god... I'll probably will have a breakdown,