Life Without You

Take me to the rooftop 

I wanna see the world when I stop breathing 

Take me to the ocean 

So I can hear the same waves we always listened to 

Turn up the chaos so I don't have to feel you 

I see you in the gold four doors 

I see your smile in the orange and blue above our favorite park 

I smell sage and think of you 

and when I pass my old house I can still feel your breath on my lips 

I can feel the white static on our old tv  

The night you came over with the gun 

The night you smashed in the window of car door 

The night you screamed at me and called me w***e 

I miss those nights

Late night scars cause nothing hurt that much 

pureflix and separate beds

sacred oasis flooded 

Prince Charming can't keep the devil away at night 

god really wasn't looking out for me and you 

my goal is to make you disappear 

maybe I can bury you with the people who let me go 

maybe I can lay you down with the life I never knew 

but I knew our life

the smell of fall through our window while holy music played

my incessant cleaning and desire for solitude with just you 

come to the water 

peace like a river will follow you 

you both left me 

you both left me for dead 

the late hot tub nights and pillow talks 

ten years 

ten years of stain glass windows 

ten years of shrines and spilled blood 

turns out the sacrificial lamb only covers so many sins 

shattered wine glass 

breaking the bread 

blood runs down my leg 

I cut too deep this time 

staying up all night

my thinking is twisted 

if the world was ending

you'd come over right