Fade Into Black

"I remember watching the mascara tears flood the ivories and I thought, "It's OK to be sad." I've been trained to love my darkness."
" Lady Gaga

"And now, I'm just trying to change the world, one sequin at a time."
" Lady Gaga










Colorful whirlwind
Always second best
Always a let down
Never passed a test
Beautiful stranger
To some it would seem
Inside us all
There is someone like me
~*~
Dramatic uproar
Framing my past
Hold on to the memories
Of pain that has long passed
Idiotic laughter
Helped in evil ways
Easily swayed
To put the "Evil" away
~*~
I was different
Never hard to tell
I held on to youth
I played Ghost in the shell
Chasing lightening bugs
Everything seemed alright
Nobody knew
What I hid inside
~*~
Eyeliner charades
Cover my face
It isn't my fault
My past made me this way
Depression swooped in
A valiant steed
Took me away
And taught me to see
~*~
Life wasn't always useless
You get what you give
But isn't it funny
It never really happens like this
The good are let down
So others can fly
Taking their lives
Massed murdered the night
~*~
It started in high school
The rumors flew
Somethings uncalled for
I never even knew
People would whisper
Change their pace
After all
I stared death in the face
~*~
Lying lifeless
In that hospital bed
After the overdose
I hoped I was dead
Woken up
Only to be shipped away
Life turns directions
In mysterious ways
~*~
Eyeliner charades
Cover my face
It isn't my fault
My past made me this way
Depression swooped in
A valiant steed
Took me away
And taught me to see
~*~
Colorful whirlwind
Always second best
Always a let down
Never passed a test
Beautiful stranger
To some it would seem
Inside us all
There is someone like me

Author's Note

I was thinking about high school and how my depression had started and in doing so i was able to put together sort of an insight of part of what started it. Everything in this poem is true. Though it is not my best. Try not to be to rash.

Reviews

[Elaenor Aisling]

Haunting and beautiful. I can very much relate, as I have suffered from depression myself. Great work.

[dreaming dame]

To put it bluntly, it's plain beautiful. Sad, but beautiful. Love it.:)

[Alice]

truth of the pain,self imposed judgement seeps out of every line,it is true that we all have a "someone like me " inside us ,but how well we cover it up is the true talent. Loved the poem!!

[VelvetRosetta]

Wow reading this reminds me of Amy Winehouse, She was insanely talented...
Depression eats at a soul, I am very depressive at times it comes and goes, this piece you wrote was deep and you used a few lines that I really enjoyed...

My past made me this way
Depression swooped in
A valiant steed
Took me away
And taught me to see

Wow...It can teach us to see harsh realities I dont even wish upon my worse enemy..

[Spookers]

I liked this. I believe everyone has felt this way once or twice in their life.

[Sweet Emotions]

I can relate to this very well. I was hospitalized for almost attempting suicide in high school, and I know what depression feels like. I'm glad you've found a safe outlet for your feelings, and even though I don't know you, I'm glad you survived. Everyone deserves a second chance. This poem is really good, a great expression of emotion and strong insight into your past experience.

[Zeitgeist Manifesto]

I'm glad you are still here with us.
Stay on our side.

[Suzy Q]

This was so full of emotion. Because everything you wrote about is true, which is what always makes the best poetry. It was tragic and I wish I could help. People in high school are still so immature, we don't know what we say or do can hurt others. We just fail to see it. And that's what happens to a lot of people in high school, they become depressed. Some go and fix it, others go and kill themselves, and others find something to do with it. Just keep your head held high and know that life is worth living.

[joshua deathdealer]

This is an awesome write. Brutally honest and very well written. Love the Lady Gaga quotes as well. ^.^ xoxo

[Ruth]

There is and we all shatter and bruise love...we need to remember positive elements it seems at times...this is well thought out....great work xx