I know...

Twenty years after cheating on my beautiful, innocent wife,(now ex),I still feel the hurt I caused her and my guilt will stay with me forever. Can you find my encrypted message before the end?

I know….

 

Saying sorry won’t mean much, when not said from the heart

Or caress without that loving touch, the threads will come apart

Ready to undo each plan, you made for loving days

Remorseful now, is what I am, in oh so many ways

Yesterday’s I can’t bring back, to live and play again

Fortitude is what I lack, exchanging love for pain

Occasionally I got things right, I loved to see your smile

Romantically entwined each night, if only for a while

Hating as you hold my hand, my lying to your eyes

Upsetting you I couldn’t stand, this cheater in disguise

Ruthless actions of deceit, to one who loved me so

The excitement of the cheat, so hard to let it go

Inside my heart was yearning, to stop my cheating game

Never one for learning, there’s no-one else to blame

Getting strength to tell you, of the cheating I have done

Your tear-filled eyes already knew, that I was not the one

On thinking of the heartache, my selfishness did show

Using sex, for sex sake, is never love, I know

X-rays show an empty space, where my heart should be

‘X’ now marks this lonely place, since I set you free.

 

 

(Take the first letter from the start of each new line to find the cheaters’(Me!) message, excluding I know.)