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falling backwards

falling backwards

A Poem by charlotte
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i had been talking to this guy off a dating site and i wrote this poem when i became insecure . I started jumping to conclusions, this is, an expression of my insecurities , i guess

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but do you get my point 
do you get my drift 
you tell me you will meet me 
we say we will definately meet soon 
and then you go silent 
and ignore 
i thought you were genuine 
i thought you were sincere 
making me believe you were genuine 
only to go silent and blank me 
telling me you will meet me 
only to ignore me
do you not think that is a bit inconsiderate and unfair 
oh , i guess you do not think 
and you are not considerate enough 
who cares that i got my hopes built up 
believing i could meet up with you 
to be silenced and ignored 
climbing up a ladder
you find a ring and you think maybe it 
could be the start of something higher 
something brighter 
something nice about to happen 
and then suddenly 
damn!
you fall off backwards
sinking back onto the floor again 
and oh, i have been knocked back down again 
oh , what a flipping surprise!
it always seems to happen 
when you think something bright might occur 
you sink into blackness once again 
and you have fallen to the floor 
as if someone has pushed you over 
solidly with their hand
making you feel small 
vulnerable 
little 
and defeated 
and like they care or even think 
to realise what they do 
or how they affect you 
i should give that guy a firm push right back 
and tell him what for 
but oh i already have !

© 2017 charlotte


Author's Note

charlotte
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oh my my my my....never on the internet ..that's what i think...one doesn't know the truth about anyone on the internet .. unless we already know who they are... and even then, wouldn't you agree, we slant things in our favor a lot ...;) i commiserate with your sadness and frustration ... i have 4 grown children and have encouraged them all to date the old fashioned way... meet people that have similar interests..like skiing clubs, or sailing or dancing or yes... maybe even Church ;) thats what i think... too many scammers and trolls out there ... not worth it says i!
E.

Posted 2 Years Ago


charlotte

2 Years Ago

hello , yes it is more difficult for me to meet people the normal way. some people are genuine tho ,.. read more
charlotte

2 Years Ago

i think this guy is genuine but my insecure head was telling me he wasn't lol
Einstein Noodle

2 Years Ago

discernment is not easy...emotions, passions and wants can easily get in the way ... i prayed for we.. read more
Well done for the final push.
When you feel insecure. It stands to reason you'll feel vulnerable. But that doesn't mean you're weak.
You're just finding yourself. Strength is measured in deeds.

Posted 2 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

charlotte

2 Years Ago

hello .. thankyou for your review of this poem. My insecurities and reactions can sometimes feel out.. read more
Paul Bell

2 Years Ago

I think we all go through this at some point.
Just time for change.

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Added on December 15, 2017
Last Updated on December 15, 2017
Tags: insecurity, inner struggle

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charlotte
charlotte

United Kingdom



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a creative girl who also loves to bake, and do yoga , i love fantasy books , i like to write poems, aswell as stories and i like to knit i also like reading other people's poems , i like painting , d.. more..

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