Rants of a mad man

Just me thinking and needing to get them out.

Am I going mad or am I becoming sane? I don't believe what society tells me anymore. They said Edger Allen Poe was a mad man but for me he saw what man really was. But we cannot know who we are or what we are. Humans are constantly changing. We made gods and story's to accept what we are. Now we use science but even that could be made. Maybe we are some other beings creation but does that mean we are only imaginary? Could we be another being and this just be a dream? And if it is our dream why is it a nightmare? Why is our brain so sick as to make a world such as this?!? If it is someone's dream, even my own, then why do we all have minds and can feel? Why are we not just projections and why won't this being wake up? Is this world real? Or is this just a nightmare of me? If it is what is the point of doing anything? What is the point of working or studying or building my body? What is the point of helping people if your not even sure they exist? Why do I still do it even if I'm having these thoughts? Is this voice in my head begging me to end it a being who simply wishes me to wake up a friend? If I die here will I wake up there? Will it be better? Am I going mad or has my mind just opened like some men before me? How do I live with these thoughts and not do anything for it? So I turn to questions man has turned to forever but never answerd. Who am I? What am I? Why am I?

Author's Note

Idk if I have gone mad. These fits of thought happen often when I am alone. I don't know what to do. Haha and isn't that funny. The text to get this on is "unshrine" how fitting. So I don't know what I am or who I am. My name means nothing. Why am I? Do you know?

Reviews

[Pax]

like everyone said your not mad... your just thinking deep...listening to your deepest thoughts...
"Who am I? What am I? Why am I?"
~ these three questions well man has search for it in a long time and I'm not sure they found the answers yet...
you have a profound mind...
so keep it up...

[Boy of the red]

thank you very much my friend.

[Ees]

The science had to come from somewhere. I am not a religious nut or anything, it just seems like common sense to me. Science doesn't negate spiritual belief. It seems like they can coexist pretty well to me. We could be just a cell in a larger organism. You aren't mad, these are all valid thoughts and questions. These are things that sane people think about. An insane person would just accept what was there and not look into origins.

[Ees]

The science had to come from somewhere. I am not a religious nut or anything, it just seems like common sense to me. Science doesn't negate spiritual belief. It seems like they can coexist pretty well to me. We could be just a cell in a larger organism. You aren't mad, these are all valid thoughts and questions. These are things that sane people think about. An insane person would just accept what was there and not look into origins.

[Boy of the red]

I'm not saying science is wrong. It makes more sense than anything else but I'm just saying it could all just be made up by something else

[Ees]

I wasn't arguing your thoughts, just thinking along with you. haha. It could be. Those questions are what makes us human, not insane, that's all.

[David the writer]

I totally have had these wonders, and I came to the conclusion that life is reality. In a dream key things wake people up such as pain. Well I've tried cutting before, *never done it again* and it never woke the real me up. My beleifs are satanic beleifs. *satanists = athiests for Satan is only a symbol*. Life is what ya make it pal, make it the best

[Boy of the red]

thank you very much

[A. V. Madison]

I know what you're going through. My mentality isn't healthy either. The honest to God best way to deal with this is:
•Don't cut. It's addicting and lonely. I know this because I have been addicted to it before.
•Visit a therapist. My therapist helped me a lot.
•Avoid intoxication. No drugs, cigarettes, alcohol, etc. This will bruise your mentality further.
•Whatever That_Girl tells yoiu to do, DON'T DO IT. haha
•Keep a rant journal. Rant out all your feelings to it. It helped me a lot.
•Scream into a pillow. Both fun and relieving.

Hope these helped.

[Boy of the red]

I have a problem with cutting already but getting better. Had a problem with drugs and drinking but I've stopped. Now That_girl is very nice to me and my love. Please do not insult her

[A. V. Madison]

I know, I know, I was joking about Avy. She like a second mom to me, don't worry. Love her with all my heart :)

[That_Girl]

Well, if you have gone mad, so have I. I find myself thinking many of the same thoughts on a daily basis. Some questions may never be answered though.

[Boy of the red]

But how do you deal with these thoughts? How can you possibly explain them to people if you don't even know what your asking in the first place?

[That_Girl]

Drink. haha kidding. Mostly.

You can't, they are personal questions that you must answer (if possible) yourself.

[Boy of the red]

Haha I've had a little bit of trouble with drinking so I can't haha. Well religion is out. And science I can never understand so...well up till now I just haven't cared. I don't know why I just suddenly do. Not enough sleep I geuss

[That_Girl]

So have I. Been through rehab for it. Religion has always been out. Science... I'd like to not think about that usually.. and lack of sleep always contributes to silly thoughts. :)

[Boy of the red]

Haha I couldn't go to rehab. Had to have friend hold me down and keep everything from me. Yea I geuss so. But what about all the great men and women who lost their minds thinking about this? Why do people consider them mad if they simply thought of questions no one could answer? It drove them to maddness and often suicide from just wonder. It's all very strange to me. Haha I think if I told anyone in this in real life my studder would kill me. I even shake when typing this from frustration of wonder.

[That_Girl]

I'm sorry sweetie. Everyone has these thoughts from time to time, some more than others. :/

[Boy of the red]

haha maybe it is a physophers curse