Thirteen

It is a poem I wrote because of my father leaving. We are on batter terms now but the pain was still there. I'm sorry it's a little long and ranting

The boy was thirteen

Thirteen and you left

Barley a teenager 

Barley able to stand on his own.

For 3 years you sent him to a hell they called a school

Now he must endure another with you gone!

His mother was breaking

His brother torn

He was dead.

The boy was thirteen 

He was made a mockery of 

just for who he was attracted to.

He wanted to die everyday.

He felt nothing,

Because of this he needed pain.

He cut away his sadness

Cut away the emptiness.

He was dead inside.

He put on his mask 

To cover his wounds,

To seem like everything was ok.

It wasn't 

He needed to die,

Because of you he had Paul 

Paul helped him see

That the only way out of this misery

Was to die.

So many options,

But he could not do a single one.

Someone always tethered him 

To this scared broken life.

He wanted to move on.

The boy kept his razors close at hand,

Kept his rope and chair at the ready,

But no one would let him leave.

Paul and Death urged the boy to go,

But he could never go.

He could go and have no regrets,

But the boy was only thirteen.

He had people who kept him here.

The boys scars were hard to hide but he did so.

He hid everything from the world.

He had to step down from the chair,

Take off his necklace of rope,

And hide away the blades.

The boy hid them deep inside himself,

Where no one could see his pain.

He saw this world through his mask.

Only when he was alone could he take it off,

Where it left cold shameful marks

He had to take it 

Maybe the world would change

One day

But the boy would never see it

Because today he made his final choice

His choice to leave it all

He stood on his chair,

Put on his necklace of rope,

And with a simple step ,

He ended his pain,

His sorrow and misery.

With that step he left this world

And all in it.

The boy was 13.

Reviews

[ForeverNever]

Dark or not,I find this piece beautiful. I love it, its unlike anything else you usually read, so its wonderful. I can also find myself connecting with it.

[Boy of the red]

thank you babygirl

[Emrys Realmskip]

Love it ! its so deep and thoughtful. i love how you put all of your emotions out there !

[Boy of the red]

thank you!