Forgiveness

Forgiveness

By: Kalyn Hosler

You ask me to forgive you

You say that it's my fault

You say that you're sorry

And that it could never reappear  

Your words can be like water, on a hot and sunny day

Cold but refreshing

It's only there for a second

Before it starts to be too cold to move

It makes you frozen

Numb and scared

You can't do anything but stand still

Its tied my lips together

I cannot speak of that one cold night

Where i become too numb to tell the truth

And now i have to pay

For being manipulated by a boy who told me i would be okay

I'm numb to his touch

I'm numb to everything around me

Your promises were there

But only for a second

They were gone

And so were you

Now you're back, asking for forgiveness

But how can i forgive you when im still coughing up water from the last time you let me drown

And now you're gone forever

You finally gave up

Decided i wasn't worth the fight

Decided he was

He hurt you so many times

Hurt me and mom too

But somehow he's better than the things that we gave you

I guess i expected this

Couldn't let my guard down

But how stupid of me for trusting my brother

I expected this

I expected to drown again

But how can you expect the water to come up and take over

When you were promised there wasn't any at all

How can you learn to swim

When the water keeps rising

You asked me to forgive you

Now i can't forgive at all