FightA Poem by GovTeaCakeA poem about fighting depression and suicideFight 09/28/2020 I’m 20 years old Can you believe that? I never thought I’d make it Not with the war going on The one in my head The one I fight mostly Laying in my bed Whether I’m awake or Sleeping, I fight the Big fight, the fight For my life It’s a back and forth Battle, do I stay Alive or dead It’s actually complicated Many factors to play in Freedom, self-worth and incarceration
Do I value myself enough, To keep on going? Am I financed enough, To keep my life flowing? Is there ammunition enough To end it all? Its been going on for 8 years Do you know how many times I Almost lost? There were some close ones And not so close ones Okay, there was one close one But the other times, Do you know how defeated I was? How close I came? To ending it all The only thing that held Me back at those times Was that there were no Easy way out Not successfully Not definitely But I rose up eventually And I lived to fight Another day Of this horrible, cruel war To fight to make things right And to pay my debts To try to make it better All I have to do is Hold it together But do you know how hard It is to keep fighting? Even if it’s the only thing I can do I don’t even have a choice At least not now But I know one thing though, I want to make my mamma proud. © 2020 GovTeaCake |
StatsAuthorGovTeaCakeFLAbout20 y.o aspiring poet and author. I am Hard of Hearing and love to read. Currently, a student pursuing my AA. more..Writing
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