Old FriendA Poem by GovTeaCakeDepression can be like an old friendOld
Friend 09/28/2020 I through my notebook away A year’s worth of memos, Thoughts, poems, personal info It was part of a plan to shut down But you know t don’t commit to my
plans For long. They sound so good at the moment but Knowing in the back of my heads it’s So wrong. See Depression is an old friend to me That goes away but eventually comes Back. He wraps me up in his big black Cloak And puts a noose around my throat But I know I’m not going to choke. Depression and me, we’re old friends,
it’s Almost like a joke. Instead of laughing I’m silent Instead of swaying I’m compliant But in my head I’m contemplating I think of ways to get out I want to scream and shout But all I can do is sit and pout I can’t let it out Not in this place This place you have to be aggressive This place you have to freak out Bang on the doors, bang on the
windows You can’t ever win, but you can deal
some Blows Let it travel with your thoughts From plans, to suicide, to escaping Everything you haven’t tried Homicide, assault, to battery Oh wait, I lied I’ve been charged with all of those Now I only have a year left And it feels so close At least that’s what everybody else
thinks But I’m cynical and pessimistic Realistic I think they aren’t going to let me
out Even after they tied my hands behind My back, threw me in the water with The sharks Told me I have a chance if I Cause no bites But in this place, you have to be
aggressive I can’t even bang on the windows Or bang on the doors I never won and when I dealt a blow It was me bleeding on the floors When the sharks smell blood they’re
out to attack And I’m trying as hard as I can to
hold back I fight with being different, I fight
with Education, trying to get my college
degree Hoping the judge will release me. I stay to myself, at the edge of the Water avoiding the slaughter But you see Depression and me We’re old friends. © 2020 GovTeaCake |
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Added on October 26, 2020 Last Updated on October 26, 2020 Tags: depression, suicide, friends AuthorGovTeaCakeFLAbout20 y.o aspiring poet and author. I am Hard of Hearing and love to read. Currently, a student pursuing my AA. more..Writing
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