A little mercy now...

November poetry number thirteen.

A little mercy now...

I know, I am fragments of what I was. Once loud mouth and crazy man. His eyes are heavy with sadness and memories. He told the falling sun. The mercy of a  long life. We learn to speak less, listen more.

Today my world is more silence. I will visit another mentor, a kind person who was kind to me. I have learn that time will take her toll and the people we loved, our safe havens will leave us.

I am fragment of what I was. Once business man, maybe poet, once wild man, soldier and outcast who loved the sin, gin and the sea. Now he slumbered in new dreams.

Now the elixir of the ambrosia wine is less sweet. My eyes are weaker, my back is sore and my mind is leaving me. I see a old man looking back at me in the  mirror.

I remember kind faces, I remember easy voices that had left my world. Now I hear them in my voice when I speak to my children.

I asked the Lake St. Clair. Do tears kill the heart? Do tears make us forget? Do tears make us heal and pray? Maybe we suppose to need less, give more?

The fabric of life cannot be stopped or changed. I wonder do the dead remember us? I write names of grandparent, parent, brothers, family and friends to paper. I burn the paper with sage and I hope. The one's, that I loved me. They know, I remember them and I am thankful for their kindness.

Today I am in the Autumn of my life. I walk slower, talk less and appreciate more. I learn, like my mentors did. We are here just for awhile. We are just teachers, protectors and examples for the grandchildren.

Today I will visit my kind and gentle friend is holding life on a thread of life and I wish I had words to tell her. Thank you my gentle and wonderful friend. You made my world better.

 I pray today. When I leave this world. Maybe I leave my world better than I was given? Please Lord of life and death. I need a little mercy today. Make me wise and give me wisdom.

John Castellenas

Author's Note

Thank you for reading.

Reviews

[Fran Marie]

you speak the words of
wisdom John as the days
speak and years teach .
I often wonder about the
meaning of life as we enter
the twilight of our years..
and for me anyway;ife is
all about the children..
and our already dead ..

I wonder do the dead remember us?
some heavy thoughts to ponder
within this poem..

so well pennef

[Coyote Poetry]

Thank you dear Fran and with old age. We learn what is truly important. Thank you for reading and the comment.

[Cherrie Palmer]

I think the best approach to meeting someone's needs are straight forward. We should simply tell friends and family what they mean to us. So those words never go unsaid.

[Coyote Poetry]

I agree dear Cherrie. We need to tell the folks we love. We need and love them. Thank you for reading and the comment.

[Cherrie Palmer]

John, How could I not commit. This writing was lovely and moving.

[lessa (kenzie)]

the older we get the more we grow, I enjoyed this write, nicely written and expressed

[Coyote Poetry]

Thank you dear Alex. We learn with a long life. What is important or not.

[slfisher89]

That was incredible. I love the lines "remember kind faces, I remember easy voices that had left my world. Now I hear them in my voice when I speak to my children." It speaks of past of how loved ones live on; through the lessons they've taught. Please make a book of your stories one day.

[Coyote Poetry]

Thank you for reading and the kind words. I do appreciate.

[jacob erin-cilberto]

people we love leave us and we become more and more humble...the more we know the less we know, and we finally can admit it.
j.

[Coyote Poetry]

I agree Jacob, the older and the wiser we become. Thank you for reading and the comment.

[no tell writer]

Today I am in the Autumn of my life. I walk slower, talk less and appreciate more. I learn, like my mentors did. We are here just for awhile. We are just teachers, protectors and examples for the grandchildren.

Love this part so much, It is so true as well. Nicely written

[Coyote Poetry]

Thank you for reading and the comment. I do appreciate.