Pathways of Life

Love lies trapped in a heart broken

flooded with tears

awash with sorrow

I surrender into a void of loneliness

 

Lost

I wander through dark corridors

of the deepest night

aimlessly searching for the light

 

Unknown faces stare at me

as I move through the darkness

I am ethereal and eternal

loved and despised

 

A mystery

a moment in time

floating soundlessly through a life

of passion and pain

longing and desire

 

Always dreaming

always searching

I reach out to the ones who watch me

pleading to be held

to be lifted up in the arms of love

but they push me away

I am but a play thing in their hands

a fantasy to their minds

 

Carelessly they mock me

tease me with their cruel hearts

and empty promises

 

I want to run

to hide

but the pathway of darkness is never ending

the faces who lustfully devour me with their eyes

too numerous to count

 

Emptiness fills me

engulfs me

until I am but a hollow shell

I fall to my knees and cry out for release

but even the heavens have closed their ears to me

 

Defeated

I lay down on the cold dark pathway of life

that I have been placed upon

I close my eyes

surrender to the night

 

Yet still I can feel them watching me

wanting to use me

and then discard me just as a child

discards an out grown toy

 

I know I should fight

keep moving

try to get away from this unearthly place

of sorrow and pain

but I have no more fight in me

 

I am lost

once again I cry out to the heavens

but my cry escapes me as the softest whisper

barely more than a mournful sigh flows from lips

that silently yearn for a lover’s kiss

 

I feel the darkness trying to take me as its own

cold hands cruelly seize me

try to pull me into the night’s embrace

close me off to the light forever

 

But then deep within me God calls out my name

He speaks gentle words of love into my soul

He fills me with His light

and before me the darkness is suddenly destroyed

 

I open my eyes and see that I am now laying in a beautiful meadow

surrounded by wild flowers that are glorious to look upon

Overwhelmed with joy

with inexplicable gladness

I see a new pathway appear before me

a pathway of light

 

I know that it is this road that I must now follow

that even though I walk alone

God’s Spirit now walks beside me

guiding me and loving me as man never can

 

I look into the distance

try to see the end of the pathway

but it is impossible to see

it continues on for a lifetime

then into the eternity

that exists beyond the grave

 

Slowly I begin to walk

along the pathway of light and life

eagerly awaiting each twist and turn

that I may come upon on my journey

 

No longer afraid

I walk through a life

filled with beauty and promise

knowing that one day

one will come to walk beside me

one who will fill my heart and touch my soul

with a true, everlasting love

 

But until that day I will continue to walk alone

lonely yet at peace

fearless and full of faith

patently awaiting love's sweet caress

to light my soul 

and reignite the flame of love

that for now 

lies silent within me

Reviews

[Frieda P]

Wow, this took me on a long journey, a winding road at best. I can't say which stanza I like best, they're all intriguing and packed full of emotions...

Yet still I can feel them watching me
wanting to use me
and then discard me just as a child
discards an out grown toy

That kind of summed it all up for me, discarded, such a harshness of reality. Nicely pen'd as always Carolann. Kudos on this excellent read.

[Carolann Dowsett]

Thank you so much Frieda :)

[KeeD]

It's like i've been strapped in to your mind and soul taken on this roller coaster journey of life. I love the creativity and imagery of the poem and the way you've connected life to these metaphors great job hun

[Carolann Dowsett]

Thank you Kee :)

[quinfinn]

that dormant love waiting to emerge from the gloom and despair of loneliness, how many of us long for that emotional rescue from torment and loneliness, the flame of love lies ever burning, the kindled heart forever yearning. how i enjoy this type of prose, excellent romance write...

[Carolann Dowsett]

Thank you so much. :)

[quinfinn]

welcome

[Coyote Poetry]

A sad and powerful journey in the poem. Hard to gain strength and confident to love again after sadness and disappointment. I like the flow of emotion leading to some hope in the last lines. Thank you for sharing the excellent poetry.
Coyote

[Carolann Dowsett]

Thank you so much :)

[Night]

...To me, this completely describes the woman that you are..." A beautiful fragile creature with power". To know you is to love you. Your writing so brings out the romantic in me...a wonderful, truthful write.

[Carolann Dowsett]

Thank you so much. Means a lot. :)

[Night]

...you're very welcome.:)

[The Nameless]

Wow - like always.

The poem starts off with such sad, tragic emotion and then the light.
It really describes how living a life with God can make you so much happier, knowing that there is someone who deeply cares for you.

"And then discard me just like a child discards an outgrown toy" - wonderful simile

Pleasure reading =D

[Carolann Dowsett]

Thank you so much. :)

[~*~Peace Keeper~*~]

This is really good...so many of us know the path of darkness but so few know how wonderful the path of light is.

Good Job

[Carolann Dowsett]

Thank you so much :)

[AlchemicPlutonian]

The journey gets pretty dark sometimes, but how exciting would the path of pure lightness be without it's counterpart?

It's a learning process, and I'm assured that you're no stranger to that.
I love your writing.

[Carolann Dowsett]

Thank you so much. :)