LIFE FLIPS LIKE A COIN.

I see my Dad suffering
I see my Mom' struggling
I see my family crumbling
I see my soul shattering ,picking it in bits.. it's pricking
but all I know is my will is still fighting...
Trying to win the war against the odds, It's scary.

Heaven or hell ,heads or tails?
I see my life flipping everyday like a coin
trying to decide which way I should be going.
This is funny!
Never been placed with two options at a gunpoint , it's sounds too many.
What the heck I'm doing?
Where the heck I'm going?
I don't know what do I believe in to make myself believe in?
I smoke a one or two to relieve it but all I get is the reality that I'm scared to believe in.

My words aren't poetic, my verses aren't rhythmic
I know I ain't creative but all I know is my pain is realistic with a mind of a sadistic freak, hustling through these creek full of messy tricks
life ain't a delusionalist(ic) heap ,I don't try covering up for my weak(s) that I'm scared to believe it yet I live with it.
Life dropping bombs like Hiroshima and Nagasaki got bombed, just by two bombs!
What about those mobs?

Words are choking, emotions are mocking
Life's guard been broken but to heck with this border
I refuse to sit in this order.
I've been doing things lately yet not smoothly but with great difficulties still going slowly.
Just know that I did it and will do it again.

Author's Note

There might be some words which are just made up just to give an impact as words which I couldn't express.
Do review it and help me out if you can.
Thank you