~Case of My Ex [restored]

Penned in summer 2007. Restored in Sept 2008. Different feelings following on from "Friendships". PS. I can assure you I don't feel like this anymore. I recommend you read "~Five" after this :) xx

Without you I’m strong

But when you’re here,

I weaken.

I don’t want you back, that’s for sure,

But something inside me �" a voice, beckons to be heard above the other noises;

They’re always here.

 

You never stay long enough to endure a genuine conversation with me…

And that makes me question what you meant when you said

‘I’d like to stay really good friends with you’:

Friends who hardly say a decent word to each other?

Friends who speak through other people?

If you ask me, that’s not real friendship:

That’s the guise of strangers.

 

Sometimes I like to think I’m the only one who remembers you and wants to stay in touch, but when you visit the south and don’t breathe a word of communication to me, I feel a bit hurt.

 

So the ex-girlfriend is no longer a priority,

Doesn’t she deserve a bit of notice?

Girlfriend, be it an ex or not, doesn’t come without ‘friend’ after all.

 

No wonder I get a reality shock when you drop in unexpectedly:

When I have no knowledge of your visit,

HOW can I feel?

Reviews

[Clyde du Coeur]

-Orlando Furioso's initial response [which got lost in the restoration process]; which, upon looking at and re-reading, I agree with and like to think a wise owl knew what I went through :)

'Friend' can be such a cruel word! A 'friend' in this context is not a devoted lover. And yet it is hard to tell a 'friend' to be gone. And then the 'friend' turns up unexpectedly and you weaken all over again as your hope seeks to promote the 'friend' to something more. I think 'friend' status maybe gives the person an excuse to drop by when they please, as a 'friend', without them having the duty to offer anything more than 'friendship'...though they of course receive more than 'friendship' in return. And of course many of us are our worst enemies as we cling to someone as a 'friend' in the hope... Great second verse which puts the finger on things.

[Richard McLin]

This piece was magnificent. Now I can spew out a whole bunch of praise to build up points, but there is really no need. All I have to say is that this is the best piece I've read in a long time, and it is a piece that I will re read over and over again, and that is not common for me. Great job.

Richard.