Beginning

How the idea came to be-- weight loss inspiration for me

The Thought:

I haven't been a small girl since around the age of 8. That was the same year that I had skin cancer removed from my face and my dad and step mum moved houses. This isn't to say it is emotional. I am not really sure what is wrong with me nor my body. I am an independent women now, soon to be 21, and I've decided it is time I take control of my weight. And what better timing? Two short days and I will be moving from a dorm with no kitchen and microwaved meals and take-aways, to a nice apartment that I will have a full sized kitchen.

As of now I only eat, on average, one meal, maybe two a day. I don't drink a lot. A cup of coffee or warm almond milk everyother day, water, and chai tea. Even before college, moving out from under a toxic parent, my dad and step mum's divorce, my childhood trauma, before all of it, I was not one keen on food. I love fruit, not in large quantities; I love chicken; and I love pasta. The main staples in my families italian household. It wasn't that I was a picky eater; I enjoyed different veggies, potatoes, sandwiches, etc. I just forgot to eat. I rarely felt hungry until I hit puberty and got my period. Now I rarely am hungry, but every now and then (twice a month?) I get this craving and wild hunger to binge. Weird? Maybe. I'm not sure really. Sometimes I gave (with a pint of Ben and Jerry's non dairy icecream) and sometimes I get fruit chips to satisfy slowly until the craving is gone.

Now that I am about to be in a position to make my own food, prep my own food, and spend less money by preparing it all myself, I'm out of excuses. I have set a small goal (baby steps guys) of 1,300 calories per day and 10,ooo steps (the equivalent of about 5 miles) a day. When the campus gym opens, I plan on introducing that into my new routine. Of course there will be cheat days but I haven't decided how often or when. Ideas?

Everyday, hopefully, I will come on here, post my daily stats (the food I ate, how many calories, steps, my starting weight, etc.) and my feeling 0n the day. I am doing this because I realize it is hard to find people out there like. Bigger people are usually accustomed to big portions, lots of take-away, or lots of grazing. People like me, who don't really eat, are usually associated with skinny, bony figures. I have got a bit from each side of the scale.

The first addition will be today-- which is technically my second day. So I will post both in one. I will also be posting my initial weight, and will be reweighing myself next month. I look forward to your thought, comments, and hopefully, support

Author's Note

Hey guys! This is super new to me. 2 years ago I tried to take my doctors advice (3 meals a day, 2 snacks a day) but it made be super nauseous. Since then, I have managed to gain 20lbs! So I decided this is the year I build up to what my doctor prescribed. Not suddenly but enough to get my metabolism going. I welcome any comments, supports, and advice!