Never Beat Again

I want to tear the heart out of my chest
Crush it to a pulp, never bleed again
Never feel again---

I want to be an empty automaton
Live without the pain, never love again
Never laugh again---

I want to become a shell of a being
Stop this beating, heart never to want again
Never be whole again---

I want to break away without running away
Cut out the human in me, never waste a breath
Crying for you---

This small death is something I have to do
For these feelings would choke the life out of me
And I want to live---

I shall look at these scars as faded memories
Without meaning any longer, a faceless shadow
And how like a ghost---

I am not good enough for you,
So I will disappear, leave you to the one
Who can care---

No longer shall this anchor stop the body-ship from sailing free
And there are so many more empty skies to see.

Author's Note

Wrote this last night and revised it today. Let me know what you think of it!

Reviews

[ambur]

If you review others' writing you can get more reviews on your own. Just some heads up! You writing reminds me of when i started writing, so I can relate. I really love the last two lines, but they seem different from the rest of the piece. Good write overall.

[Chirpy!]

Pale Rose, (Almost called you CynFall!) what I like about your writing is how you can write as if only to your self. Your work reads like a personal dissection. Yet, somehow, it is never really about you. I never feel lost in your thoughts. I feel like I'm shown mine. You write beautiful poetry. It looks beautiful, too!

In my opinion, there is no better kind of poetry.

[Pale Rose]

Thank you so much! I feel the same way, and it's high praise for you to say my poetry embodies this.